iM Ur PrEeTy LiTtLe ThInG

SoMeTiMeS

2006-01-31T20:15:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES....
I DON FEEL LIKE FALLING IN LOVE...
YET I DID
I DON FEEL LIKE MOVING ON...
YET I DID

IF...
IT HURTS SO BAD TO BE IN LOVE....
DEN WHY DO WE LOVE
WE ONLY LOVE TO LOSE...
DEN WHY ACCEPT IT IN THE BEGINNING

LOTS OF THINGS IN ME....LEFT UNQUESTIONED.....

A PoSt DeDiCaTeD To ZaIdI

2006-01-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

WAT A DAY TODAY IT HAS BEEN..... DAMN......

7.14PM. JUST WOKE UP...GOT A MSG FROM HIM SAYING HE HAD MET WITH A BIKE ACCIDENT. I WAS SO SHOCKED AND TT INSTANTLY MAKE ME FEEL SO WIDE AWAKE. MY HEART BEATING FAST. QUESTIONS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND..... PACING UP AND DOWN THE ROOM....

9.00 PM. HE MSG ME SAYING HE IS FINE NO NEED TO WORRY ABT HIM.... HAD A SO CALLED TEST DRIVE WITH PAPA.... COULDN'T CONCENTRATE ONE BIT ON MY DRIVING....

ARGH...HE IS THE LAST PERSON ...NOT EVEN THE PERSON I WANNA RECEIVED THIS KIND OF NEWS FROM. DEFINITELY NOT HIM.GOSH....I HATE IT WHEN THIS KIND OF THINGS HAPPEN...

DEAR GOD,

PLS PROTECT HIM AGAINST ANY DANGER IN FUTURE.

GIVE HIM THE COURAGE N WILL TO GO THROUGH THIS OBSTACLE YOU HAVE PUT UPON HIM.

AMIN

DEAR U,

PLEASE TAKE EXTRA CARE WHEN U ARE RIDING UR BIKE. U SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME....WAS SO WORRIED....SO MANY THINGS ON MY MIND TILL NOW.... HAIZ.... DON WORRY ABT OTHER STUFF N TRY TO GET UR HEALTH BACK TO FULL... EVERYONE WILL BE THERE IF U NEED THEM...REMEMBER WAT U TOLD ME....DON KEEP IT IN U IF U HAVE LOTS OF STUFF ON UR MIND...LET IT OUT...AND I'LL BE THERE TO GO THROUGH IT WIT U K FREN.... TAKE LOTS OF CARE.... MISSING YA....

WITH LOVE,

PINKY

WELCOME THE NEW YEAR

2006-01-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

BACK....WOOOHOO...LIKE FINALLY AFTER BEING M.I.A FOR SO LONG...CAN'T BE HELPED WHEN U ARE BUSY RITE? ERM RITE! ANYWAY....GONE ANOTHER YEAR N HERE WE ARE WELCOMING THE JOYOUS NEW YEAR...WELL MY STARTING WAS A BIT ROUGH N PATCHY DESPITE A HOPEFUL WISH THAT IT WILL BE ALRITE....LOTS OF UNWANTED STUFF HAPPEN AND GOOD MEMORIES TOO CAN'T BE DENIED..... EVERYONE HAS THIER FAIR SHARE OF UPS AND DOWN....WELL FORGET ABT 2005..... I PRAY THAT MY 2006 WILL BE BETTER IN EVERYWAY....ANYWAY ..I QUIT MAC CAFE ...NOW IM WORKING AT TCC....WHERE...? DATS A SECRET.... GG....DAMN LAZY ACTUALLY....WILL UPDATE AGAIN.....BYEZ....
*MUACKS*

20.08.05

2005-09-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

HIM...
WHO WAS EVER SO PATIENCE WITH ME
EVER SO TRUE N EVER SO LOVING

FOR HIM...
IS THE MOTIVATOR OF MY LIFE
INSPIRATION OF MY DREAMS
MY LIFE LONG SUPPORTER

HIM....
WHO NEVER FAILS TO BRING SMILE TO MY FACE
AND DRY THE TEARS AWAY WITH JUST A WINK

FOR HIM
PLEDGES LOYALTY N HONESTY
IN ANY UNEXPECTED EVENTS

HIM....
THE GUARDIAN OF MY SOUL
THE CEMENTS N BRICKS OF MY WALLS

FOR HIM
SHALL BE THERE FOR ETERNITY
IN GOOD OR BAD
FILLED MY LIFE WITH COLOURS
N FOREVER EXIST

HIM

2005-09-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

I WAITED...AND THERE U APPEAR...WITH THE SMILE ON YOUR FACE. THE SMILE THAT USED TO MAKE MY DAY...AND STILL DOES...BUT HOPES DREAMS SHATTERED LIKE GLASS...
REALITY SET BACK...THE PAST TORE MY HEART INTO PIECES....BRING ME TO SHAME... N EMBARRASMENT.....THE MISUNDERSTANDING.ACCUSATION WHICH WERE NEVER TRUE. N YET I WISH U WLD SAY "IM STILL IN LOVE WIT U". HOW PATHETIC CAN I BE...DO U REALLY LOVE ME....FOR NEARLY A YEAR I WAITED...BUT IN VAIN I WAS DEVASTATED...BUT WHEN THE TIME FINALLY CAME..... IT SO SO OVER, THE GAME....N U'RE TRYING TO MAKE THINGS RITE...BUT HERE I AM....TRYING TO PUT UP A FITE...CONSTANTLY REMINDING U OF MY STATUS... YET U KEEP THINKING IT WAS BOGUS....IT HURTS ME TO SEE U SAD N DOWN.... IT EVEN HURTS ME MORE TO SEE HIM WIT A FROWN... EVERYTHING WAS NOT MEANT TO BE.....AND EVERYTHING WAS JUST COZ OF STUPID ME...APOLOGIES WILL NOT MEND UR HEART...I KNOW TT FROM THE VERY START...BUT Y ARE U STILL SO STUBBORN N DETERMINED EVEN WHEN U HAVE HEARD N TALK WIT ALL MY BINTS. I TOLD HER AND IT WILL STAND..... LETS LEAVE IT TO GOD WHO WILL BE MY MAN

................[FIlL In ThE BlAnKs]

2005-09-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

StReSsEs.I RePEaT..StReSsEd..YeS ThAtS WaT I HaVe BeEn fEeLInG SiNce SePtEmBeR StArTs.....ArGh....DaMn It...

AbG IM SUPER SORRY TO THE MAXIMUM KALAU I DID SOMETHING WRONG...ADEQ DON MEAN TO HURT U IN ANY WAY OR SO.....I FELT SO GUILTY DAT I CANNOT CHEER U UP .... LIKE U ALWAYS DID WHENEVER IM DOWN....PLS PRETTY PRETTY PLS CHEER UP K..I MISS THE FUN TIMES ALL OF US HAD WHEN EVERYONE WAS DOING JUST FINEE...SURE THING SUCKY THINGS HAPPEN...BUT U KNOW IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U...PLS PLS PLS PPLS PLS PLS.........

AND TO THAT PARTICULAR SOMEONE.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY... i WAS SHOCK WHEN U MSG ME YESTERDAY...TOT DAT WAT HAPPEN ON DAT DAY...WAS A DATS IT....THE LAST CONVERSATION THE LAST MEETING THE LAST OF EVERYTHING...IT DIDNT OCCUR TO ME U WILL APPEAR BACK IN MY LIFE...HAIZ....LIKE I MSG U YESTERDAY....MAY U FIND THE HAPPINESS THAT U HAVE ALWAYS LONGED FOR..... MEMORIES ARE SWEET.... WATEVER HAPPENS IS STILL FRESH IN MY MIND....I HOPE U ARE HAPPY THE WAY U ARE NOW....AS I HAVE ALSO SAID...IF WE R MEANT TO BE...WE WILL BE...IF NOT...ITS A TWO DIFF PATH....AND IF WE R FATED TO MEET AGAIN...1 DAY WE WILL...BUT FOR NOW...I PRAY FOR UR HAPPINESS

MR LAMENESS IN LOVE

2005-08-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

IM BACK..HAHA..... KNOW WAT...MY CLIP FLEW AND IT ENDED UP ON THE BED OF THE RIVER...ERM DON KNOW WAT RIVER IS DAT.....EPLANADE THERE....FARK SEH.... MY FAVOURITE CLIP.......WELL WAT HAPPEN AFTER DAT IS NOT IMPORTANT...

ANYWAY....TO MR LOVE.... I DON KNOW WAT ELSE TT U WANNA KNOW..... SINCERITY N HONESTY WILL PROVE TO BE A BIG DEAL ONE DAY.... WATEVER THE DECISION TT WILL BE OUT....MAKE SURE ITS FOR THE BEST OF BOTH PARTIES.... LOVE IS A COMPLICATED THING TT NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND....BUT TIME WILL GIVE U THE ANSWERS TO ALL UR DOUBTS ..... WHEN U ARE IN LOVE....SWEET MOMENTS ARE HARDEST TO COME BY...TREASURE THOSE MOMENTS N LIFE WILL SIMPLY BE JOYFUL...FULL OF LAUGHTER ....HAPPINESS BUT MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL....FULL OF LOVE....TT U WILL NEVER LIVE TO REGRET.... LOVE WIT UR HEART ......

WITH FULL OF LOVE ,

PINKYSWEETYPIE

CINTAMU MEKAR DIHATI

2005-08-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

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A DeDiCaTiOn

2005-08-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

EQA------U HAVE BEEN THROUGH SHITZ WIT FRIENDSHIP PROBLEMS...I KNOW WAT U R FEELING GAL TO BE IN TT KIND OF SITUATION...BEEN THERE DONE THAT....DON LET THIS KIND OF PEOPLE BRING U DOWN....EVEYTHING HAPPEN FOR A REASON...MAYBE U NEED TO GETOUT OF TT LIFE N START A NEW ONE...GOD IS FAIR..HE TOOK SOMETHINGS OUT,..... HE WILL PUT BACK IN A WHOLE LOT OF WONDERFUL STUFF...WHATEVER IT IS...GF IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U OK....

AGENT TSUE----MY BELOVED SWEETHEART...SAME GOES FOR U...HE'S NOT MEANT FOR U DEN LET GO...HE IS JUST A HINDRANCE STOPPING U FROM MOVING FORWARD...IM SURE U ARE MUCH HAPPIER NOW RITE...GF....WE ...THE OTHER GFS N ME LOVE U LOTS...WE ARE ALWAYS HERE IN GOOD TIMES N BAD TIMES....I LOVE THOSE TIMES AND I PROMISE MORE TO COME...CHEER UP GFS....

LOVE U SWEETIES....

WaT A LaZy Day

2005-08-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

HaIz....My LaZiNeSs HaS ReAcHeD ItS MaXiMuM PeAk...WaS SuPeR lAzY NoWaDaYs.....To EvEn WaKe uP...GoT N Mc..ToDaY FoR WeRk bUt Im ReAlLy SiCk K...FuRtHeRmoRe ThE WeAtHeR Is SuPeR BaD...

BaCk To ScHoOl...I.A. TeSt WaS A BrEeZe...DeSpItE CoNStAnT SkIpPiNg Of ClAsSes..BoRn SmArt?...NaH..LuCkY I GuEsS..WeLl I WeAr BaJu KuRuNg To ScHoOl...HoT BuT NiCe..So LaDy LiKe So Gd GaL SeH..No VuLgArItIEs ..OnLy OnCe ..HeHe...OoPs..AhAkZ..k La I ShaLl upDaT AgaIn LaTer...NeEd To StUdY

SEE HOW HAPPY LIFE CAN BE WHEN U ARE POSITIVE N CONFIDENT IN MOVING TOWARDS WAT U HAVE ALWAYS DREAM OF ...DON LET PROBLEMS BRING U DOWN! *MUACKS*

LiFe Is SwEeT

2005-08-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

LaSt EntRy ..WoOhOo..

WELL....LASTLY...I SIMPLY FOUND A NEW MEANING TO LIFE... ITS NOT ABT THE RICHES IN THE WORLD MONEY NOR THE MATERIALS TT WE CHASED FOR......EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS ONLY TEMPORARY..ONLY LOVE WITH SUPPORT OF ENCOURAGEMENT DETERMINATION DISCIPLINE AND THE POSITIVE STUFF....T WE CAN GET A WONDERFUL MEANING OF LIFE...WE CAN GO THROUGH THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF EDUCATION OR BEING THE MOST RICHEST BUT ITS MEANINGLES WITHOUT ANY LOVE DESPITE FAMILY OR FRENS...EVEN THE SMILE OF A STRANGER CAN MAKE ANYBODYS DAY..

WAS WATCHING CHARLIE N THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY...FIND IT BORING AT FIRST HOWEVER THE MEANING TT LIES BEHIND IS DEFINITELY WORTH ANYTHING...EVEN WITH SUCCESS BUT WITHOUT UR LOVED ONES...LIFE IS JUST N EMPTY SHELL...HOW CHARLIE DENY ALL THE RICHES TO BE WIT HIS POOR FAMILY DEFINITELY KNOCK SOME SENSE IN ME...LIFE IS WONDERFUL N ITS HOW U HANDLE IT DESPTE THE PROBLEMS WII DECIDE THE FATE U HAVE IN NEAR FUTURE..A WONDERFUL PERSON ONCE TOLD ME...GOD BRING U TO IT..GOD WILL BRING U THROUGH IT...WATS THE POINT OF DWELLING ON UR PROBLEM N NOT DOING ANYTHING ABT IT...NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...ITS HOW U WANT IT TO BE DONE VERY BADLY DAT MAKES EVEY SINGLE THING POSSIBLE...

ANOTHER STORY...LORD OF THE RINGS... THE CHARACTER SAM SAYS...THE DARKNESS WILL SOON PASS... SUN WILL RISE AGAIN...COZ EVERYONE IS HOLDING ON TO SOMETHING...

HOLDING ON TO THE VERY FACT TT WAR WILL BE OVER EVERYTHING WILL BE BACK TO NORMAL...LIFE IS ALWAYS FULL OF CHALLENGES... ITS NOT ALWAYS RAINBOWS N BUTTERFLIES...BUT ITS TOO NOT ALWAYS THE DARK N EERIE...EVERYTHING IS FAIR... LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL INDEED...THE WERK OF GAD N NATURE HAS DEFINITELY BRING INSPIRE ME TO BE THANKFUL OF MY BLESSINGS... FAMILY FRENS FOE N EVERYONE... I NEVER WANT TO TURN BACK TO ANY MOMENT OF MY LIFE IN THE PAST...COZ THE PAST BROUGHT ME HERE...N THERE IS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING TT HAPPEN... FOR THE PEOPLE I KNOW...I LOVE U PEEPZ...

I love my family,
I really truly do.
But what I want to know,
Is if they love me to.
And then I think,
Of course they do,
It's like a law,
They have to.
Well sometimes they make me feel,
As if their love is not for real.
They sometimes make me cry,
And I wish I could just say goodbye.
But then I stop to think again,
They'd miss me wouldn't they?
That night,I pray.
I ask God,To
please keep my family together,
From now until forever.
Because I love my family,
I really truly do,
And now I know for sure,
That my family loves me to.

A friend is someone we lean on,
When we are feeling weak.
A friend is someone who help's us,
Find what it is we seek.
A friend is someone who looks out for you,
In all they say and do.
A friend is someone you don't have to tell,
For they already knew.
A friend is someone who would,
Go that extra mile.
A friend is someone who show's us,
A heart that does truly smile.
A friend is someone who'll stand by you,
And help you through your day.
A friend is someone who'll show you,
There is always a way.
A friend is someone who'll dry your tears,
When you feel you have to cry.
A friend is someone who'll pull you through,
When the tide feels ever so high.
A friend is someone who'll be there,
Until the very end.
A friend is someone who'll show us,
How that broken heart they'll mend.
A friend is someone who give's us,
Understanding, Joy and Grace.
A friend is someone who makes this world,
Truly a wonderful place.

AnOtHeR FrIdAy OuTiN

2005-08-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

4Th EnTrY...GoSh 6th Of AuGuSt..DaMn..OnE HeLl oF An OuTiN..HoPpEd..CaMWhOle..LaUgHtEr...FrOm BGis To EsPlANaD..We WeRe BaCk To ThE KiDdY DaYs...LiFe Is WoRtH MuCh MoRe ThAn DaT..ChEcK OuT ThE PiXiEs.....

A BrOkEn HeArT

2005-08-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

3Rd EnTry

I thought I was over you,
That's how it all seems.
But I keep going back,
To crush my own dreams.
You fed me so many lines,
That weren't even true.
I can't stay away,
I don't know what to do.
You broke my heart once,
You broke my heart twice.
I guess it all depended,
On the roll of the dice.
I'm scared that I'll be hurt,
Again like before.
I don't think,
I can hurt anymore.
I know this is short,
But there's no more to say.
Just to pray and hope,
You'll love me back one day.

*YoU CaMe BaCk To My LiF AfTeR So LoNg GiViN Me HoPeS BuT To DaSh It RiTe BeFoRe My VeRy EyEs.WaTs Ur BlOoDy InTeNtIoN..Y cAnT U SeE Me HaPpY FoR OnCe...PlEaSe...DoN EvEr StoP Me In My JoUrNeY In AtTaInInG HaPpInEsS*

BiTcHiN WiT AgEnT TsUe

2005-08-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

2Nd EnTrY...FiRsT ImPrEsSiON ArE AlWaYs WrOnG..StArTeD AlMoSt As FoE...HoWeVeR We ArE SuPeR GoOd ToGeThEr PeOpLe MiTe MiStAkEs uS As HoT LeSbIaNs..HaHa..DuRINg ThE HoLs..ShE CaMe OvEr...CoZ I WaS SiCk..DaMm RtE...BuT HaD So mUcH FuN...CaM WhOrInG N My PiCs ArE oNdErFuL ThKs To HeR TeAcHiNg Me ThE EdItTiNg SkIlLs...WeLl WaT CaN I SaT AbT ThE GaL..ShE's HoTT On ThE WhOlE..We ArE GoInG ThRUgH ThE SaMe KiNd Of ShITz WhEn It CoMeS To ReLaTiOnShIp...BuT Oh BoY GuEsS We MaNaGeD To PuLl OuT Of It PrEtTy WeLl..... CaM WhOrIng We DiD..PiCs ArE Up...ChEcK It OuT....

FrIdAy OuTiNg

2005-08-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

1St EnTrY.Ok I KnOw ItS BeEn SuPeR LoNg TiMe RiTe I UpDaTeD...LaZy + BuSy = No UpDaTe.WeLl ScH HoLs ArE OvEr.BoRiNg.WaS SiCk DuE To BoReDoM At HoMe. An DWoRk.WeLl EvEnTuAlLy I DiD WeNt OuT...WiT ThE GalS FrOm Sp..As UsUaL..HoUsE HoPpIng...It WaS PuRe FUn...ThE JoKe Of ThE DaY..WhEn I FeLl ..SuPeR PaIsEh..JuSt By ThE RoAd SiDe..CaN U ImAgInE ThAt...DaMM..AnYwAy We DeFiNiYeLy Had LoTs OF FuN..ChEcK OuT ThE PiCs UnDeR My LiNkS K....

ScHoOl HaIz..PaIn In ThE Ass

2005-07-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ok I KnOw I MaDe A ReSoLuTiOn To StArT AnEw ThIs SeM...BuT I JuSt CaNt ReSiSt SkIpPiNg ClAsSeS...CoMiNg To ClAsS LaTe...AlL ThE NoRmAl RoUtInE..YeAh TeSt Is DeFiNiTeLy NoT A FoRm Of MoTiVaTiOn FoR Me To StUdY...It JuSt GiMmE ShIvErS DoWn ThE SpIne...StRaNgE But tRuE...SoMeOnE...pLs...FoRcE Me..kIlL Me..AnYtHiNg..JuSt GeT mE To ThE RiTe PaTh....

In ScHoOl

2005-06-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

Yo Yo Yo..YeAh As ExPeCtEd In ScHoOl BlOgGiNg CaUsE I'Ll Be DaMm LaZy WhEn Im HoMe...FiNaLlY FiNiSh My PrO- E....AfTeR So LoNg Of CoNsTaNt StReSs AnD HeaDaChE...WiT ThE HeLp Of FeW FrEnS..ThKs PeOpLe...I ApPrEaCiAtE It...HeRe NoW WaItInG FoR My SiS N MadHu To FiNiSh ThIeRs.....HmMmM..WeLl ReCeNtLy DiDnT ReAlLy HaVe AnY PrOpEr OuTiNgs WiT My FrEnS..BusY WiT ScHoOl As UsUaL...SuCkS I KnOw BuT WaT To...ThErE Is A SaYiNg...SuFfEr NoW....EnJoY LaTeR..SoRrY It WaS A DiReCt TrAnSlAtIoN FrOm A MaLaY PeRiBaHaSa ..WaTeVeR Tt WaS SuPpOsEd To Be...CoMmOn TeSt Is CoMiNg... HmMmM...eRm...Im DiStRacTeD By The CoNvErSaTiOn ThEy ArE HaViNg NoW AbT ThE dIaGrAm...HaHa..Ok Ok...

01.07.05-------------IndUsTrIaL aUtOmAtIoN BlAcKbOaRd QuIz
06.07.05-------------CoMpUtEr AiDeD MaChInIng LaB PrOjEcT
08.07.05-------------MaThS CoMmOn TeSt
14.07.05-------------CoMpUtEr AiDeD MaChInInG WrItTeN TeSt
15.07.05-------------InDuStRiAl AuToMaTiOn LaB TeSt
22.07.05-------------InDuStRiAl AuToMaTiOn WrItTeN TeSt

ThAts LiKe FeW ThInGs ThAt Is CoMiNg Up..........StReSs UTiMaTe StReSs....
WoW....HoPe ThErE WoN Be AnY HaIr LoSs....HaHa.AnYwaY Im MiSsInG SoMeOne ReaL BaD.SuCkY I KnoW...SaW Him YeStErdaY ThOuGh...At MrT PlAtFoRm....YeAhNeSs!!!

ErM WaT ElSe HuH.....Oh YeS...We GaLs WeNt On WiT OuR NoRmAl RoUtInE FoR WeD..Tis TiMe Is My SiS PlaCe...DeFiNiTeLy LoTs Of FuN RiTe BaBeS...HaHa..I'lL UpDaTe ThE PiCs FoR AlL OuTiNgS ReAl SoOn...SoRrY..BeEn bUsY N LaZy La..

AnYwAy HaPpY 1 YeAr AnNiVeRsArY To Us... ItS A FaSt MoViNg Yr WiT LoTs Of Up AnD DoWn JoY N LaUgHtEr....EvErY sInGlE MoMeNt Is FiLlEd WiTh LeSsOn LeArNt N MeMoRiEs To Be KePt AlL Of OuR LiFe...AwWw...DaRlInGs...U BeTtEr ShEd SoMe TeArS Ok...HaHa JoKiNg... LoVe U GaLs LoTs...MuAcKs

"Today's a celebration of your love finding it's way to my heart. Today's a celebration of "our" lovewhen I gave you my heart.We have touched each other's lives so profoundly and irrevocably.I brought hope and love into your life.You brought happiness and a future in mine.Taught each other how to love.You broke through all my defences, And comforted my fears.I touched places in you, you never knew you had.You touched places in me and made me feel things I never thought I'd feel again.We give each other the gift of friendship, patience, care, understanding and concern needed to build the kind of relationship we have.We complete each other. Come take my hand as we build a future together."

Life is about many twist & turns countless ups -n- downs. With all that I've been through and all that I have yet to experience I'm sure glad that God has blessed me with 5 wonderful sisters like you. Each of you is very special to me in your own unique way. Both of you have held me up when I was down and cheered me on in my times of happiness. I could never ask God for any other 5 sisters. I only owe him numerous thanks and praise for giving me both of you. You 5 have been my truest of best friends and my everything. JuLi, DaWn, AsH, MaDhU & Su to each of you I say thank you for everything and I love you always.
.

HMMMMM

2005-06-25T22:33:00.000+08:00

FIRSLTY...I CANT SEEM TO DECIDE WAT TITLE TO GIVE TO THIS ENTRY...WELL SECONDLY...SRRY FOR NOT UPDATING REGULARLY...IM SUPER LAZY SUPER BUSY.....

DRIVING ME DRAININ ME OF MY CASH .... FULLSTOP. IM SO BROKE...AND I SO DONT UNDERSTAND THE LESSONS I HAD IN SCHOOL AND IM SO BORED THAT I CAN CRY ...STUPID RITE...BUT YEAH I DID CRY...BUT TO THINK ABT IT,,,ITS FUNNY DAT I CRIED....BEEN PMSIN ALL THE WAY....THATS THE MOST HATED PART....

BTW...I WENT TO ZOO...WOW AT LAST AFTER SO LONG OF WANTING TO GO...HMMM CAN SAY NOT BAD LA...NEW ATMOSPHERE...THE SMELL IS NOT SO BAD LA...SEEN LOTS OF ANIMAL...I FALL IN LOVE WIT A BEAUTIFUL STRANGER....WOW...GORGEOUS I MUST SAY....hehe...NOT TELLIN U ALL...SECRET....VERY FAIR VERY WHITE...SLIM N GRACEFUL.......ITS ON MY MIND EVERSINCE.....

NOW PLANNING WHERE TO GO NEXT....NITE SAFARI MAYBE.... OR CROCODILE FARM....AIYA...EVERYDAY SEE BUAYA.... HMMM MAYBE GO UBIM...GO CYCLING WIT THE REST......K K GTG...MUACKS

I WONDER...

2005-06-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

LOVE...WAT IS LOVE..IS IT WORTH WAITING FOR..IS IT WORTH SACRIFICNG UR TIME TEARS ETC....IM CONFUSED.....HOW CAN U LOVE SOMEONE WHO MAKES U HAPPY BUT AT TIMES DISAPPOINT U...

A PART OF MY HEART GOES OUT TO U...:

Just a chance, just a try,
Will determine the state of your heart or mine.
Another kiss, another touch,
Maybe the love I've wanted so much.
Who's to say it wouldn't work? You or me?
Who's to say we aren't meant to be?
Maybe we really are unrecognized best friends or soul mates.
Who's to know or determine fate?
We are not in the position to conclude, but we are to initiate,
Try now, before I'm gone and it's too late.
Please don't judge me, I'm not every other woman.
Nor think I assume your every other man.
Trust me when I say I'm happy, believe me when I say I care.
Don't play me, don't fool me, I do know life isn't fair.
Who's to say we wont die today or tomorrow, is it fate?
Who's to say the person we just met isn't our soul mate?
Take a risk, if your not sure then try,
Because if you risk nothing, who cares if you die?
Life is no longer a challenge, love is no longer a need.
If pain was not experienced, who's to say that we bleed?
But how will we know unless we try?
If a bird never left his nest, how would he know he could fly?
How can you say I'm not the one, with just a glance?
When it's all about risking hurt or happiness, and taking A CHANCE!!

GUYS GALS ...ANYONE....YES ITS HARD TO CONTROL UR FEELINGS SOMETIMES....ITS NOT WRONG TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE EVEN THOUGH ITS REQUITED.... U MIGHT NEVER KNOW THR TRUE FEELINGS OF BOTH PARTIES... ALL U EVER GOT TO DO IS TAKE THE CHANCE.... TAKE THE RISK....WOULD U REGRET IF THINGS OUT OTHERWISE OR WLD U PREFER IF U JUST KEEP QUIET N LET THINGS GO BY.... ITS EASIER SAID DEN DONE....BUT JUST TAKE IT ALL IN THE NAME OF FUN.... HAVE A LIL FAITH HAVE A LIL TRUST N CONFIDENCE....EVEN IF U FAIL...AT LEAST U KNOW U've TRIED....

HOW I WISH IM ABLE TO DO JUST TT ....I MIGHT NOT HAVE TO FEEL THE PAIN NOW.... BUT STILL...I'LL JUST KEEP ON WAITING...COZ ITS HARD FOR ME TO DENY THE FACT TT I KEPT IN MY HEART.... DESPITE OF THE PEOPLE I WAS WIT...ITS U TT I LONGED FOR....

one day as i sat by a quiet little pond,
a sadness was in me i felt all alone...
i gazed out across the water and thought,
then wondered aloud why i was distraught...
as if it could answer i started to speak ,
to a lilly drifting near my water soaked feet...
i asked the white lilly just what should i think,
then, to my surpriseit smiled back and winked...
it said, "you're never alone if you don't want to be,
for the power to change that is inside you, you see...
just ponder each smile that you've ever had,
and wear them all now you won't be so sad...
close your eyes tight and set your mind easy,
then think of your loved one and there you shall be...
think of their warmth,think of their skin,
think of their cuddles,the touch of your friend...
think of their smell inside you, you'll feel,
they're next to you now just think, and they're real...
don't lose them inside they're there in you now,
your heart can just feel themif you never ask how...
think of the sunshine then think of the day
you'll have just together loving hours away...
now, give you a moment that sweet memory made,
a time yet to come should fate have it's way...
think of those times things went so well,
and you didn't even try their smile so did tell...
for somewhere right now your friend thinks of you,
this moment you're filling their heart with love too...
so think, and they're with you they're inside you,
you'll see, for you're never really alone if you don't want to be..."

WELL....I STILL HAVE MY FRIENDS.... LOVE tHEM LOTS...THEY FilL UP MY LIFE'S EMPTY SLOTS...LOVE U PEOPLE SO MUCH..ESP MY SIS...N MY BINTS

PICS

2005-06-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

WELL WELL WELL...WILL UPDATE THE PICS SOON...OVER THE WEEKENDS MAYBE...TOO LAZY N TIRED TO DO IT....ALL THE BEAUTIFUL PICS ..... *MUACCKS*

in skool

2005-06-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

HMMMM HEY HEY HEY....ME IN SKOOL NOW....WATCHING ASH UPDATING OUR COMBINED FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT...HAHA.... ITS SO FUNNY,...WHEN ITS DONE I ADD THE REST K K K K.....WELL PASS FEW DAYS BEEN GOING OUT ..SHOPPIN....KAK RIYAN THKS...AND TO MY GALS....LOVE U BINTS....FOR THE WED OUTINGS...JUST CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT ONE.....WELL...KAK RIYAN..IM STILL MISSING SOMEONE....HAIZ...OH STOP IT PINK STOP IT...NVM.....ANYWAY BABA N MUMMY GO UMRAH...ON 090605...AFTER SKOOL MAMA DECIDED TO FETCH ME AND WE WENT STRAIGHT TO AIRPORT....AS USUAL...BEING EMOTIONAL ...I CRIED....I MISS THEM THE MOMENT I LEAVE THE HOUSE...AND NOW THEY LEAVING ME FOR 9 DAYS...DATS LONG OK HELLO....HAIZ...Y AH...I KEEP MISSING EVERYONE BUT NO ONE MISSES ME..HUR HUR HUR...DO U MISS ME? HMMMPH!K LA......GTG...UPDATE ABT MY SHOPPING TRIP ANOTHER TIME ALRITE....MUACKS...HUGS N KISSES

MISSING HIM

2005-06-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

ARGH SCHOOL HAS STARTED..SUCKY...Y...COZ ITS BEEN A WEEK AND I NEVER SEE HIM...EVERYONE BRAGS ABT SEEING HIM...BUT I DONT....Y TORTURE ME...HAIZ...I MISS HIM I MISS HIM...HAIZ.....MISS HIS SMILE HIS JOKES....LAME JOKES I MEAN.... THE WAY HE MAKE ME LAUGH...BLAH BLAH BLAH...GUESS WAT ....YEAR 2 IS SHITZ MAN...SO MANY NONSENSE MODULE...JUST HOPE TO PASS THOUGH....HAIZ.... TTS ALL LA...LATER UPDATE AGAIN...LAZY....

UPDATES

2005-05-27T00:18:00.001+08:00

OK I KNOW I HAVE BEEN MISSING IN ACTION FOR LONG...AND HERE I AM...FIRSTLY I WOULD LIKE TO CONVEY MY DEEPEST SYMPATHY TO MY AUNTY AND FAMILY...WHOSE HUSBAND AND FATHER PASS AWAY ON THE 19TH MAY AFTER ISYAK. JUST CAME BACK FROM WERK...THE WHOLE DAY WAS SO STRNGE...BAD SIGNS ALL THE WAY BUT I JUST CANT SEEMS TO MAKE IT OUT WAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.... I BROKE DOWN....SOMEONE AS NICE AS HIM...AS WONDERFUL GONE IN A BLINK OF AN EYE....I MISS HIM SO MUCH.....NOTHING CAN DESCRIBED THE FEELINGS I BEAR TILL NOW....SINCE HIS DEATH...LIFE WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN FOR ANY OF US...ESPECIALLY MY GRANDFATHER.....ENUF OF IT HERE BEFORE I STARTED CRYING AGAIN..SHALL UPDATE FURTHER ON THIS WHEN I FINALLY GET A GRIPPED OF IT...

WELL WELL WELL..I MISS HIM. ...FULLSTOP....DAMM......HAIZ......JAJA...MISS HIM....HOW...

I MISS HER TOO......HOW......I MISS THEM....EVEN THOUGH WE MANAGED TO GO OUT AND HAVE FUN...I STILL MISS U GALS..AND SATU ORG TERCAMPAK KAT SITU...KPO JE....DIER SORANG JE LELAKI......

ITS OK..SCH OPENING SOON......CAN SEE MY GALS.....CAN SEE HIM...CAN SEE EVERYONE.....SEE HOW MUCH I MISS SCHOOL NOW...AND WHEN IT REOPENS....SEE THE DOUBLE AMOUNT OF COMPLAIN I'LL TALK ABT....YEAR 2 HERE I COME..... CHAOZ.....

PREETY BOY

2005-05-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

I lie awake at nightSee things in black and whiteI've only got you inside my mindYou know you have made me blindI lie awake and prayThat you will look my wayI have all this longing in my heartI knew it right from the startOh my pretty pretty boy I love youLike I never ever loved no one before youPretty pretty boy of mineJust tell me you love me tooOh my pretty pretty boyI need youOh my pretty pretty boy I doLet me insideMake me stay right beside youI used to write your nameAnd put it in a frameAnd sometime I think I hear you callRight from my bedroom wallYou stay a little whileAnd touch me with your smileAnd what can I say to make you mineTo reach out for you in timeOh my pretty pretty boy I love youLike I never ever loved no one before youPretty pretty boy of mineJust tell me you love me tooOh my pretty pretty boyI need youOh my pretty pretty boy I doLet me insideMake me stay right beside you[BRIDGE]Oh pretty boySay you love me tooOh my pretty pretty boy I love youLike I never ever loved no one before youPretty pretty boy of mineJust tell me you love me tooOh my pretty pretty boyI need youOh my pretty pretty boy I doLet me insideMake me stay right beside you

SHE WILL BE LOVED

2005-05-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteenShe had some trouble with herselfHe was always there to help herShe always belonged to someone elseI drove for miles and milesAnd wound up at your doorI've had you so many times but somehowI want moreI don't mind spending everydayOut on your corner in the pouring rainLook for the girl with the broken smileAsk her if she wants to stay awhileAnd she will be lovedShe will be lovedTap on my window knock on my doorI want to make you feel beautifulI know I tend to get so insecureIt doesn't matter anymoreIt's not always rainbows and butterfliesIt's compromise that moves us alongMy heart is full and my door's always openYou can come anytime you wantI don't mind spending everydayOut on your corner in the pouring rainLook for the girl with the broken smileAsk her if she wants to stay awhileAnd she will be lovedShe will be lovedI know where you hideAlone in your carKnow all of the things that make you who you areI know that goodbye means nothing at allComes back and begs me to catch her every time she fallsTap on my window knock on my doorI want to make you feel beautifulI don't mind spending everydayOut on your corner in the pouring rainLook for the girl with the broken smileAsk her if she wants to stay awhileAnd she will be lovedAnd she will be lovedAnd she will be lovedAnd she will be loved[in the background]Please don't try so hard to say goodbyePlease don't try so hard to say goodbyeYeah[softly]I don't mind spending everydayOut on your corner in the pouring rainTry so hard to say goodbye

2005-05-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

WELL WELL WELL...FIRSTLY THANKS TO INA FOR ADDING IN THAT PICTURE SCROLL FOR ME .....THANKS A LOT GERLFREN

SECONDLY....THINGS BEEN GREAT AFTER FEW DAYS OR SHOULD I SAY WEEKS OF MISERY AT LEAST IM BLESSED WITH A GOOD DAY.....HAD FUN AT WERK...BEEN DANCING AND SINGING ....JOKES....LAME ONES OF COZ.... AFTER WERK ...HANG OUT NGN DAK DAK KEJE.....SAME TINGS.....TOBACCO TEA .....DEN KU ACCOMPANY AINI WENT TO IMM TO BUY BAG....RECEIVED GOOD NEWS WHEN IM HOME.I PASS MY FINAL THEORY.....YEAH.....AND SOON.....MY LICENCE ARE ONE STEP CLOSER...CANT WAIT TO START DRIVING TO SCHOOL TO AVOID THE MORNING MADNESS IN THE TRAIN....AND YES...HOME HAS NEVER BEEN BETTER...LOVE BEING AT HOME NOW.....THE FAMILY BONDING IS GREAT LIKE NEVER BEFORE....BEING 18 IS GOOD THOUGH....I AM FINALLY USING MY HEAD TO THINK ONLY DAT IM LAZY SOMETIMES..... CAN FINALLY UNDERSTAND THE MEANIN OF HARDSHIP.....AND WAT I WENT THROUGH REALLY MAKES ME STRONGRE EVERYDAY..BUT ONE THING...MY BELIEF IN GOD IS THE REASON Y IM HOLDING ON...HE IS FAIR AFTERALLL......PATIENCE IS THE KEY....THE RESULTS WILL BE CLEAR...AND ITS PROVEN FOR MY CASE....DEAR GOD THANKS FOR ANSWERING MY PRAYERS.....FORGIVE ME OF MY SINS......GUESS DATS ALL FOR TODAY...MUACKS....LOVE YA...

CeRtAiN SpArKs ReTuRn

2005-05-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

It's something about him
He owns that special gift
When I am feeling down
He is always able to lift
All my doubts disappear
From words he keyed in
A certain spark returns
His warmth is felt within
Heartfelt and reassuring
Smoothes worries away
Loving soulmate sparkle
He shines a special way
By sharing the gift of love
Togetherness words flow
My heart in contentment
I wear the happiest glow
In touching heart to heart
It means so much to me
Appreciating those gifts
Of friendship in harmony
Loving words overflowed
Breaking writers drought
Special bonds I treasure
Friends without a doubt

DoN CaRe

2005-05-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

IM NOT GONNA CARE IM NOT GONNA BE NICE IM NOT GONNA BE THeE GOODY GOODY GAL SAY WAT U WANT THINK WAT U WANT ITS MY LIFE I LIVE IT THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE I WON DO THE STUPID STUFF LIKE DRINKING ALL THAT I KNOW MY LIMITS BUT U CANNOT DEFINITELY STOP ME FROM BEING A BITCH FROM BEING A NON BELIEVER OF LOVE ITS TOO LATE ONLY AN ANGEL CAN CHANGE MY LIFE THATS IT PERIOD

HoUsE Of WaX...

2005-05-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

GOSH HOUSE OF WAX IS DEFINITELY IS MUST TO CATCH.SCARY...SUSPENSE...HORROR....NOT FOR THE WEAK HEART....DAMN....ALMOST HAD A HEART ATTACK OK.....ESP THE PART.ERM.HMMMM........HAHA ALMOST ALL.....COVER MY FACE...SHOWING ONLY MY EYE....NOT EYES BUT EYE......K K .LETS START FROM THE BEGINNING....

330..REACH YISHUN.....TT PRINCE IS LIKE ONE KING.....415 DEN REACH....SO MANY EXCUSES.....LUCKY MY SISTER HOUSE IS NEAR KNOW.....CAN HANG OUT....BUT ITS OK LA...... ERM EXCUSABLE......DEN TAKE TRAIN PROCEED TO CITY HALL TO MEET AZFAR N ELLY...BEFORE DAT MEET KAMARUL...GUESS DATS HIS NAME...ZAIDI TAKE DISC....DEN MEET THE REST AT PENIN.......EAT AT BK.....THEY WERE GREAT....TOT IM GONNA BE AN OUTSIDER...BUT THEY MAKE ME FEEL WARM...THKS GUYS.....OVERALL....I ENJOY MYSELF....FROM THE WALKING...AND THE JOKES...AND THE MEREPEKZ[LAME] GHOST STORY....AND ALL SORTS ..........THKS AIGHT.......APPRECIATE IT DAMM MUCH...*MUACKS*AFTER MOVIES/.....THE LOVEBIRDS WENT HOME...WE JAILBIRDS SLACK AT ESPLANADE....TOBACCO TEA...ENJOY WIND....A WHILE..AND GO HOME..AS USUAL...ALONG THE WAY...MY DEAR FREN...WIT HIS STUPID POSSES...MY HP IS THE VICTIM...AND IN THE TRAIN HIS HP BECOME MY VICTIM.MAIN GAME SONIC SAMPAI BINGIT...KEEP LOSING THE ASSHOLIC GAME.....HAIZ...USELESS DOINKZ..........MMMMM OVERALL GREAT DAYS GUYS.....5 STARS....CHEERS ............

PMS

2005-05-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT...I THINK ITS COMING...EMO-ING ALL THE WAY...SUDDEN MOOD SWING....WARNING.....DAMM...WATS WROOOOOOOOOONGGGGGGG....ITS GETTING WORST EVERY MONTH.....PMS-ING ALL THE...PRAY HARD I'LL KEEP MY EMOTIONS IN CHECKED....ARGH.....K K...BREATHE IN ....BREATH OUT....BE COOLLL.....YESH.....BIATCH.....FUH...K...IM GOOD............HAVE FUN TOMORO....AND BE A GOOD GAL......SMILEZ PINK.....

GIRL

2005-05-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

[Beyonce]
Take a minute girl, come sit down
And tell us what's been happening
In your face I can see the pain
Don't you try to convince us that you're happy (yeah)
We've seen this all before
But he's taking advantage of your passion
Because we've come too far
For you to feel alone
You don't let him walk over your heart
I'm telling you
[chorus]
Girl, I can tell you've been crying
And you needing somebody to talk to
Girl, I can tell he's been lying
And pretending that he's faithful and he loves you
Girl, you don't have to be hiding
Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls
Don't know that we love ya
[Kelly]
See, what y'all don't know about him
Is I can't let him go because he needs me
It ain't really him, it's stress from his job
And I ain't making it easy
I know you see him bugging on me sometimes
But I know he be tired, he don't mean it
It gets hard sometimes
But I need my man
I don't think y'all understand
I'm telling you
[chorus 2x]
Girl, I can tell you've been crying
And you needing somebody to talk to
Girl, I can tell he's been lying
And pretending that he's faithful and he loves you
Girl, you don't have to be hiding
Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls
Don't know that we love ya
[Michelle]
Girl, take a good look at yourself
He got you going through hell
We ain't never seen ya down like this
What you mean, you don't need us to help
We known each other too well
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls
Yeah
[chorus 2x]
Girl, I can tell you've been crying
And you needing somebody to talk to
Girl, I can tell he's been lying
And pretending that he's faithful and he loves you
Girl, you don't have to be hiding
Don't you be ashamed to say he hurt you
I'm your girl, you're my girl, we your girls
Don't know that we love ya

I LOVE MY GIRLS.....WITH GIRLS LIKE THEM....LIFE IS A PLAYGROUND...A WONDERLAND.....A PLACE I CALL HEAVEN.....WELL...FAMILY TO PRIMARY SCHOOL ....SECONDARY SCHOOL.....TO POLYTECHNIC.....REVENGE GALS.... GIMY GALS....AND GALS FROM ALL OVER WHO HAVE SOMEHOW OR RATHER CAME INTO MY LIFE AND TOUCHED ME BE IT GOOD OR BAD TIMES....THOUGH SOME MAY JUST PASS BY...OUR FLAME OF FRIENDSHIP ARE STILL BURNING STRONG IN MY HEART....I LOVR U GALS...AND NEVER WILL I FORGET ANY SINGLE ONE....BELOW ARE PICS OF THOSE GORGEOUS LADIES....BTW LADIES...SORRY IF I PUT UP THE PHOTO W/O ANY PERMISSION...BUT I CANT HELP BUT AWWED AT THE MEMORIES THAT WE SHARE.... LOVE U LADIES....

THOSE ARE THE FEW PICS I HAVE...THERE'S LOTS MORE TO GO.....CHECK OUT MY LINK TO SEE THE PICS AIGHT.....CAN BE FOUND THE LEFT SIDE...

A WhOlE NeW BrAnD Of LiFe...

2005-05-06T00:51:00.000+08:00

WoW....BeEn TaKiNg QuItE A LoNg TiMe To EaSe My MiNd...WeLl GuEsS WaT ....Im BaCk.........ThE ChEeRfUl SmIlEy MeAn BiAtCh Me Is BaCk.WeLl .......I DiD SoMe ThInKiNg ...AnD I ReAlIsEd FeW ThInGs In LiFe......

1st : PROBLEMS ARE SPICES TT MAKES LIFE MORE INTERESTING AND CHALLENGING... ITS HOW WE HANDLE AND SOLVE IT DETERMINE OUR PERSONALITY...
2ND : WHEN GOD BRINGS US TO IT...HE WILL PULL US THROUGH IT....A PRICELESS ADVICE FROM MY DARLING SISTER WHO HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH UP AND DOWN...
3RD : TURN TO GOD COZ ONLY HIM HAS THE POWER TO HELP U....THINK OF HIM NOT ONLY IN TIMES OF CRISIS BUT IN TIMES OF JOYS....
4TH :DON LET PROBLEMS BRING U DOWN...BUT INSTEAD USE IT AS A MOTIVATION TO PUSH URSELF FORWARD...
5TH : PAST MEMORIES ARE WONDERFUL TO KEEP.... LOCK IN THE SAFEST PLACE IN UR HEART.....LOOK AT IT ONCE IN A WHILE...AND AT THE SAME TIME.... CREATE NEW ONES...
6TH : HAPPINESS IS NOT PART OF LIFE....IT HAS TO BE EARNED....AND COMES WITH A PRICE... CANT HAVE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD....SACRIFICES IS NECESSARY
7TH : DON SULK FOR WAT U DON HAVE....BUT APPRECIATE WAT U HAVE AND MAKE DO WIT IT .....

GOT LOTS MORE OF WAT I'VE LEARN...HOWEVER TO ME...THESE FEW ARE THE MOST RELEVANT ONES IN MY LIFE AT THE MOMENT..... AND WITHIN THIS PERIOD OF TIME...I KNOW WHO ARE TRUE TO ME AND WHO ARE NOT...THKS GUYS.... U ARE THE SWEETEST....
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SPECIAL DEDICATION:

JULIZA: LOVE U MORE DEN ANYTHING ELSE SIS....W/O U...I DON KNOW WAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME...U INTRO ME TO A WHOLE NEW LOT OF GREAT PPL.... PPL LIKE FID ...ZAIDI AND LOTS MORE....HEY WHEN U FEEL LIKE NO ONE CARES...REMEMBER IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U AIGHT SWEETY....U ARE NOT USELESS IN ANY WAY...SAM LOVES U FOR HU U ARE...MAY UR RELATIONSHIP WIT HIM BE BLESSED TILL THE END OF TIME....

FID : WE KNEW EACH OTHER WITHIN FEW DAYS AND WOW....CLOSE FRENS....THKS FOR THE GOOD TIMES AND BAD....

ZAIDI : HMMMM THIS GUY.....GREAT FREN ENEMY BRO DEAR AND EVERYTHING...NEVER FAIL TO CHEER ME UP AND BRING SMILE TO MY FACE...THKS FOR UR UNDERSTANDING AND EVER SO THANKFUL FOR UR CARE N CONCERN....BEING THERE FOR ME W/O ANY ADVISES IS WONDERFUL ENUF ...

BOI : THANKS AIGHT FOR EVERYTHING...MAY U FIND JOY AND HAPPINESS IN TIMES TO COME...

FAMILY : U PEOPLE ARE MY LIFE

FRENS : ROCK ON GUYS....

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AND TO MY UNCLE....PLS HOLD ON...FIGHT TILL THE VERY END...REMMEBER U USED TO TELL ME ...BE STRONG ....ACHIEVED THE BEST IN WHATEVER U DO...UNCLE...PLS PREACH WAT U SAY...DON GIVE UP HOPE...PERSEVERE TILL THE VERY END....ALTHOUGH ITS THE FINAL STAGE....I BELIEVE MIRACLE WILL HAPPEN...PLS IM DOWN ON MY KNEES BEGGING U TO STAY STRONG....

YA ALLAH YA TUHAN KU....KUAT KAN LA SEMANGAT PAKCIK KU...BERIKAN KETABAHAN UTK MELALUI SEMUA INI..... BERIKAN KETENANGAN DLM HIDUPNYE..SEMOGA KEMBALI BAHAGIA KPD KELUARGA DAN SANAK SAUDARA....

AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN...

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WELL THE PAST FEW DAYS ERM BEEN DOING NTH MUCH EXCEPT WERK WERK N WERK...ONLY GOT A DAY OFF LAST FRIDAY...AND I WENT OUT..... TO CATCH A MOVIE.... INFECTION...WELL TO ME IT WAS OK BUT SOME PEOPLE AH....HAIZ....AHAKZ.....DON UNDERSTAND THE MOVIE AT ALL....SO DISAPOINTING =p
HMMM THE DAY WAS GREAT.... POOL AFTER MOVIE....AND SIT AND TALK.... WOW...SO MUCH TO TALK ABT TILL WE FORGOT WAT TIME IS IT...EVEN MISS SMALL VILLE....CANT BLAME ME DIS TIME ARD AIGHT MY DEAREST FREN...

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WELL TTS ABT FRIDAY...NOW...IM JUST MISSING MY SEC SCH FREN LIKE HELL

JUST REMEMBERING THE OLD TIMES...
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OK FOLKS...DAT WAS A DAMM LONG ENTRY HUH...SORRY IF I BORE U...BUT TILL I UPDATE AGAIN AIGHT...
MUACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKS

and...

2005-04-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

i forgot one thing...dear...... the day u left me...love was still present in my heart....and now...only memories left of the two of us...and this memories will kepp me moving...love u sweetz.....

L.O.V.E

2005-04-28T16:25:00.000+08:00

well wat can i say abt LOVE....well past feew days or shloud i say weeks i.ve been struggling to juggle lots of stuff..family ....werk...relationship...friends....and recently....werk has always been keeping me back from enjoying my holidays....its not tt i purposely do it but some people just dont have the luxury...and i need to accomplised lots of things in a shrot period of time...i have to sacrificed one thing or another....so i sacrificed my bf and my late nite outing wit cousins and frens....first thing,...the relationship wasnt really doing well...suffered 2 setbacks...and it wasnt really blessed...only him and me know dat...and don intend to write it here...well lucky for me he understnd...well talk to my aunt abt it...and she said...love is no joke.....love ..there is all kind of love...whether it werk out or not depends on both parties to make it happen...as for me and him....i decide to let go..coz i feel no point holding on if its not blessed and if both of us are always on each other's nerves... we cannot come to a conclusion...despite the love tt we share...tts the only thing in common...but i'll keep on praying for his happiness...gals ...despite his flaws...he's a sweet guy....wondrful...he just need time and guidance...but i cannot afford the time...im sorry dear.... i cannot hold on to it...neither can i come back to it..... we both come from two different world ...and u know tt....our background and family upbringing is so totally diff...and i know u cannot acept it wholely....but tts nt wat i expect my guy to do...i want him to love my family the whole thing.....i cant...and u cant...im sorry for the times i hurt u or stuff....i cant blame u all the time...neither can u blame me....i just wan u to be happy wit someone else who can give u the time in the world....im happy for tt short period of time u were wit me...we went through a lot i know...but its time to move on...and its definitely time to move on for us....God bless.....love shidah

EaSt CoAsT OuTiNg WiT GeRlFrEnS

2005-04-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

WELL WELL WELL.NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBED MY OUTING....BUT PICS WILL SAY IT ALL...HERE IT GOES...BEAR WIT ME AIGHT PEOPLE

Hmmmm BeFoRe GoInG OfF..At SiS HoUsE

erm.....our mee goreng....i cook....yummy yum

Dawn eating ....damm hungry

chilling by the seaside...lovely gals...

Nothing better to do...teeheehee

jaja n fid

threesome....troublesome

sweetness

Sweet arent we....

Nyonya kalah judi

this is insane...totally

Hair flying competition

Eh WhErE La...

TeMPtIng

Testin

Going home

Ape tu......eeee

is tt my sis? gosh..

ERM tak dpt melepas tadi...

God save me pls.....

Ultimate boredom

Caught in action fidza...

Devil me

retarded sisters

how beautiful

tts all for now...muacks....

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2005-04-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

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WOOHOO

2005-04-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

WOO HOO AT LAST EXAMS ARE OVER...ONCE AND FOR ALL.....SO HOLIDAY......MAN MY HOLS ARE GONNA BE SUCKY COZ I'LL BE WORKING MOST OF THE TIME....TWO JOBS...HOPE CAN HANDLE IT...SENANG LA...SINGLE KATEKAN..TAK YA NAK SEBOK PK PK PASAL NAK KLUAR BLAH BLAH BLAH....K I KNOW PPL IS GONNA SAY WAT THE HELL PINK.........................HAIZ....ITS KIND OF A LONG STORY AND THINKING ABT IT MAKE ME SUPERDUPER EXTREMEY SAD.DIDNT EXPECT IT TO TURN OUT LIKE THAT.....HOWEVER WE ARE STILL FRENS THOUGH....ITS JUST ME LA...I DON LIKE TO MAKE ENEMIES...I MEAN....ITS LIKE...ITS OVER PAST..... FORGIVE FORGET N MOVE ON....NO POINT KEEP THINKING ABT IT AND HINDER UR LIFE FRM MOVING FORWARD...SO JUST TAKE THINGS SLOW ...... CHILL...COOL.....BE HAPPY......DON THINK TOO MUCH...OK ENUF SAID ABT TT.......WELL WELL WELL.....EXAMS......MATHS WAS OK...... E.TECH WAS OKIE....C-PROG SUX BIG TIME....E.MATL WAS OKIE........HAIZ......I HOPE I CLD GET THE RESULTS I WANT.AT LEAST 2 DISTINCTION...... BUT A PASS WILL BE NICE THOUGH.....WELL WHEN SCHOOL REOPEN I SWEAR I AM GONNA STUDY HARDER AND STOP SLACKING.ITS TIME I GET MY PRIORITIES RITE...... HEHEHEHE.......JUST NEED THE DETERMINATION AND DISCIPLINE.........STUPID ME...SO EASY FALL TO TEMPTATIONS.... K NEXT.......I WANNA GO ZOO.......HAHHAHA KNOW ITS LAME BUT HEARD ITS NEW AND NICER AND CLEANER AND SMELL NICER.woohooo......BUT IM SURE THE ANIMAK STILL SAME..BUT WHO CARES,,,,,, I STILL WANNA GO......FOLLOWERS ANYONE?.........HAHAHAH K K TTS PRETTY LAME.... VERY LAME LA.....BUT I STILL WANNA GO....TTS IT....ONE OF THIS DAYS I WILL GO...EVEN IF IT MEANS ALONE....GOSH IM GOING MAD..... HAHAH K NEXT.....CAN U BELIEVE WHO I SAW DAT DAY WHEN I WAS GOING HOME FROM TOWN........DAMN...........IT WAS........IT WAS............ K K IT WAS MY PRI SCH CHECHER...... HAHAHAHAHA......SO DIFF SEH..LIKE...LIKE....WAT THE HELLL......HAHAHAH.SO.ERM....CUTE N ROUND? .HAHAHAH OK OK...........ENUF SAID IN THIS ENTRY.....

oPpS

2005-03-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

erm...i kind off forget to talk abt this when i started thinking of my baby...well....to faleq[hope i spell correctly], nadzri, shazli, rahman....and their fren...congrates...2nd prize are still good...u guys are still the champion in my eyes..... u guys rox manz...... hey the singing were good...the sound u guys create were awesome.... add it up is equal to MAGNIFICENT....if i were to get married[I WANT TO] in the future..... i make sure u guys would liven up my wedding day...wahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.....anyway...the talentime was great....the humour and comedy by some contestant are better that singapore idol bloopers....well...the solo singer...S6...md farhan who sang THE WAY by CLAY AIKEN...wow...im impressed.... u melted my heart wit ur voice[baby u are still the best k.. i still love u...hahahaha].................i fall in love wit ur voice instantly[only his voice ...i repeat ONLY HIS VOIVE]...well congrates to u tooo............................

24TH March 2004

2005-03-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

yoohooo....hmmm its been a really long day today ....well i know i have not been updating properly...well i got this uncurable disease called lazines....hahahahah...well tts only one thing k...been bz wit stuff lately...anyway.....things werent that great for the past few days...misunderstanding btw friends ...and my own bf *shooooooo*.... but im glad everything is setled now...

i realised a few things though...in a relationship...be it BGR/FRIENDS/FAMILY...its good to have quarrels once in a while...coz it will only make u bond even stronger...understand each other better.....

me n my baby.....hmmm..things weren't that great lately...honestly speaking i was on the verge of giving up...but love make me hold on...love him too much i guess.... everything make me open up my eyes and make me realise how cruel can this world be sometimes...but with perseverance, determination, patience, love and hope..... u realise wat great things this cruel world can do to mould u to be a better person...and i only got my baby to thank....despite we've been together for a short period of time.....we went through lots of shitz though....if it were to be any other guys...i guess they will not go through the tough times wit me...

FoRgIvEnEss

2005-03-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday you opened my eyes,
you had me beleive that you were only telling lies.
As my heart fell to the groundand the tears begin to roll,
It made me feel like i was never whole.
This pain i feel i try very hard to for get.
But yes i am scared of what will happen next.
I have forgiving you as my day has went on.
my heart it bleed as we spoke on the phone.
The tears they rolled down my face,
and every little evil thoughtthey had to be erased.
I knew i wanted to forgive you and i did it so fast,
I wondered if our relationship will ever last.
But here....here is my heart i will leave it with you
,If you feel you can not protect itjust tell me and please be true.
You held out your hand when i was fallen over the cliff,
You pulled me up and my mind left only to drift.
I had thoughts of what am i really doing here,
When will it be our time?or is it even near?
I dont want to hold on to something that is not there,
And my heart has no more room to share.
If you ever have the thought that we have no future together.
then let my hand go, let me mend and make this better.
Let me accept you as you are,
lets not make false dreamsthat we both know are by far.
For the first time in a long time my heart has been torn.
and pain no more is what i have sworn.
Let us try and start a brand new day,
and please never again hurt my heart that way

M.E

2005-03-20T14:05:00.000+08:00

hey... i don just post any lyrics or quotes anyhow...when i did..it really has smth to do with my life....people...read everysingle lyrics and quotes...read in btw the lines and u know wat im going through now..... my life is changed by him...i love him...and i will always do...

to my baybee boi....im here always for u.... promise me that everything will be alright....

[BeInG In LoVe WiTh SoMeOnE dOeSn'T MeAn U HaVe To Be WiTh Him...If U PeOpLe ArE In LoVe..TaKe ThE RiSk..LeT It OuT...CaUsE If ItS MeAnT To Be...It WiLl Be...WiLl RaThEr DiE WiTh Ur FeElInGs KePt In OR LeTtInG It OuT...EvErYoNe DeSeRvEd To Be LoVeD...ItS Up To U To MaKe It HaPpEn..AnD WhEn ThIngS Do HaPpEn...LeAvE It To GoD To PeRfOrM ThE MiRaClEs]

AlL My LiFe

2005-03-20T14:03:00.000+08:00

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing
And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too Yes,
I pray that you do love me too
I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby Said,
I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of,
I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love,
I cherish every hug, I really love you
And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you,
baby All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too Yes,
I pray that you do, love me
You're all that I ever known, when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known,
when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too
All my life, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you Yes,
I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you Yes,
I pray that you do love me too

CrAzY

2005-03-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

(I don't know why, what I'm doing what I'm doing)
See, baby I, apologize
For all the things that I've done that I've done
See I've known that I've been a fool for far too long
And baby you have it, I go around to wait, just come back to papa
Please baby, baby won't you stay
If you really love me then why are you leavin me
I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you babyyyyyyyy
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (crazy baby)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby (I don't know what to do)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately (crazy, crazy, crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can touch youCrazy, crazy (I'm going crazy)
when I can hold youCrazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy)
when I can see you again(Said I'm going crazy)(Said I'm going crazy)
I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeahhh
And now I know I need you each and every dayI can't live without you,
so don't run awayBaby
you say that you love me, so why'd u leave me, why (why, why, why, why)
I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby (I'm going crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately (just to think)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby(I'm goin crazy, I'm going crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy)
but I can't touch you (I'm going crazy)
Crazy, crazy (crazy, crazy),
when I can hold youCrazy, crazy,
when I can see again (if I can see you, if I can see you if I can see you, if I can see you)
If I can see you,
if I can see you again
Then I would go
, if I could see you againI'd go craeeae

happy ending

2005-03-20T13:49:00.000+08:00

True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't have an ending.

a woman's heart

2005-03-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

The most precious possession that ever comes To a man in this world Is a woman's heart.

i'll die

2005-03-20T13:46:00.000+08:00

I'd like to run away From you, But if you didn't come And find me ... I would die

BuT I Do LoVe U

2005-03-20T13:44:00.000+08:00

I dont like to be alone in the night
and I dont like to hear im wrong when im right
And I dont like to have the rain on my shoes
but i do love you
But I do love you
i dont like to see the sky painted gray
And i dont like when nothings going my way
and i dont like to be the one with the blues
but i do love you
but i do love you
Love everything about the way your loving me
the way you lay your head up on my shoulder when you sleep
and i love to kiss you in the rain
i love everything you do
ooh i do
and i dont like to turn the radio on just to find i missed my favorite song
and i dont like to be the last thing to lose
but i do love you but i do love you
Love everything the way your loving me
the way you lay your head up on my shoulder when you sleep
and i love to kiss you in the rain
i love everything you do oh i do
and i dont like to be alone in the night
and i dont like to hear im wrong when im right
and i dont like to have the rain on my shoes
but i do love you but i do love you
but i do love you but i do love you!

please remember

2005-03-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday Left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget
The memories we made
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you And you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away
With just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
We'll never know again
Please remember, please remember I was there for you
And you were there for me
And remember, please remember me
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you
And you were there for me Please remember,
our time together
The time was yours and mine
And we were wild and free
And remember, please remember me
And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this world was yours and mine
And how no dream was out of reach I stood by you,
you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I had you and you had me
Please remember, Please remember

haiz

2005-03-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

sorry been bz lately qit skool and werk...anyway the weeks been full of up n down....sucky sometimes....it start off good but sux at the end...well friday...celebrated dee and my bday in advance at foodcourt 5..... had a birthday bash....got sao wit swensen cake
damm it....at the end of the day was filled wit cake in n out....thks guys..u ppl were great...sat went newton wit some ppl ...to eat celebrate bday again...started off well...went we proceed to marina..conflict started to rise....but in d end it was ok...my bday 1303...hmmm ok la....soend time wit family....sorry ah people no mood to write in...heard abt BLENHEIM....hope i spell correctly...aat such a young age dat he has to pass on...BLen may GOD bless u ...rest in peace my fren...u will always be in our hearts...the time i saw u in sp....well never tot u things wld turn out this way...well lesson learnt ppl...never take things for granted... u might never know wat tomoro brings...be thankful for eveything u have and wat GOD gives u.....

a LeTtEr FrOm My BaBy

2005-03-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

We have been through thick and thin together during this one month. I never thought that it would be possible for someone to get into this much arguments in such a short time… we practically disagree about everything…. But in the end we get things back together… this month I have spent both my worst and best time with you… in this relationship I can taste the sweetness and bitterness which makes this relationship very meaningful…. sometimes it is better to fight cause when u fight u get things solved and sort your feelings out…. And the most important lesson u can learn is to never repeat your mistake twice and how much we mean to each other…. Rather than u keep every thing to yourself and end up hating tat person more and more… I can promise u that there will be more arguments to come and it will be more bitter than the previous ones…. But tell u wad, I’ll nvr leave u just because of this small thing…. I rest my future on your right shoulder… my hopes and dreams on you’re left shoulder…. Cause u are everything to me…

Its bullshit what guys say to girls that they are not able to live without them… but wat is true is tat life is meaningless without you baby ger… Have u ever wake up in the morning and felt like lying on your bed and don fell like going to school or work cause there is nth to look forward to at the end of the day…. Well tat is how I feel b4 I met u shida… no one there when I’m down not even my frens to perk up my day…. Because they are oni there 4 u when u are happy and nvr want to share your pain…. That’s why u mean so much to me…

In the darkest abyss u bring light to me…. In my worst nightmare u comfort me…. And most of all u bring meaning to this life of mine….. I see great thing growing between us and a wonderful future ahead of us…. I see lots of luv and care….. And even a marriage or so…. Hehehe lets keep it btw us…wahahah

I may not be the most romantic guy on earth and the most charming guy u can find… A romantic guy might know how to romance his lady to her knee…. But is he sincere with his action…. A charming guy may be good with words but well u never know whether what he is saying is the truth…..

LIFE IS SHORT AND I WANT TO SPEND EVERY SECOND WITH U BABY GER…. AND I WANT TO BE YOUR NUMBER 1 NOT 5…. HEHEHE

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awwwww aint my baby sweet...so unlike of him to write me a love letter...shahahahaahaha so primar skool...but so sweet ....thks baby...love u

2005-03-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

I woke up one day feeling lonely
Thinking of how beautiful life can be
If only you were here with me
I could have stopped this misery.
Reminiscing the memories we've shared
Memories that cannot be compared
The laughters and moods we cared
The sweet songs we both heard.
I want to be at your side
I need you to hold me tight
But its impossible since you've died
One dreary October night.
For so many nights I cried in vain
Thinking I might go insane
Because I can hardly bear the pain
Knowing you won't come back again.
Foolishly dreaming that you're here with me
Thoughts of you have hurt me so deeply
But "I'll never cease from loving three"
Even you're now a passing memory.

tts a poem dedicatd to that special someone who cant be replaced in my heart even thoug im wit someone new...sorry baybeeboi zuhri...i told u abt this b4...hope u understand my feelings for him cant fade...the way he is simply cant...but u are always in my heart my beloved late sweetheart......i do love u...well a life is like a storybook...u closed one chapter and open a new one...well lucky for me....i closed a chapter of pure pain but i open it up wit a brand new life and love... to my new baybeeboy....lets start anew in this brand new chapter which i don intend to close..... i love ya just like the way i love him...give me more time okie...love u baby!

WoOhOo

2005-03-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm wow...its been a long time since i update...well pc been very sick...got a new comp as a birthday present...woohoooo...well been through a lot past few days.....................but honestly i must and i wil personally thank my beloved darlings JULIZA & BABYBEEBOI.thanks for being there for me, wasting ur brain cells to help me out...u guys rox.....love u ppl to the core.... well i learn to take things slowly....not to rush...to always really give a good thought before decidng something...woohoo...so far so good wit baby...Alhamdullilah...may we last long k cyg
muacks.....................love u hubby baby....so far things been going on pretty well...guess wat...te wonderful forsome spent a wonderful day in my room today...teaching me c-prog...wahahaha...thanks guys for ur kind deeds...it'll be paid off one day...hahahah k la tts all for today...wanna chat wit my baby..muacks

MiSh HiM......

2005-02-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

BABY I MISH U LOTS...WALAUPON HARI HARI NAMPAK MUKA U..BARU TAK JUMPA BRAPE JAM DA MACM SERIBU TAHUN...WAHAHAHHA TU DA BEDEK...BUT I MISH U LOTS....LOVE U LOTS............ TAK TERKATA.DA BRAPE HARI NI TAK GADOH...ALHAMDULLILLAH........... SYUKUR LA.....SEMOGA HARI HARI MACM GINI KAN BEST...BABY U ARE SO SWEET AND SUPER DUPER NICE. NOTHIGN CAN DESCRIBED MY LOVE FOR U BAYBEEBOI...................I LOVE U LOTS....CUME TUHAN SAJE YANG TAU APE PERASAAN I TERHADAP U....I BERDOA AGAR JIKA PANJANG UMOR, ADELAH JODOHNYE DGN U...AMIN....TAPI KITE MERANCANG TUHAN MENENTUKAN K SYG.WALAU APE PON TERJADI...KITE HARUS TABAH MENGHADAPI.PERPISAHAN TAK PERNAH MENJADI SATU KEMUNGKINAN....... SEMOGA TUHAN KABULKAN DOA KU INI. AMIN

WeLl WeLl.........

2005-02-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

its been few days i last updated.... this week was ok.just few quarrels quarrels and more quarrels but we manage to settle it....welll......................love him so much ......secrets been revealed a lil here and there....things were not so good though this week..broke...damm broke seh..gaji pon tak gune...cannot spend.... im so tired seh nowadays...keep skipping morning class.... well tgh wait for warning letter je...pandai kan...padahal kdg2 tido cpt pon tak bole bgn...tapi bile da kat class cannot sleep.....WTF!haiz...sucky la...a lil conflict wit someone...i don know wats his prob...trying to find fault wit me....GET A LIFE MAN...let me repeat....GET A LIFE!its ur lost for acting like one fucker in the first place...hahahahaha...well my dear fren...wat comes ard goes ard.....remember tt...hahahah gosh im being so mean seh....tts me though..although i feel tt i have not been myself for this week...this week we got lots of outing....ash madhu me juli jep......tt is on wed...thurs.....wit ash madhu dawn and syahmi....and today wit baby juli sam qai ain ash madhu hadi jep piggy..went ard town wit no arah tujuan....den go jammin wit them...qai baik sak main guitar.....jeles ku dibuatnye.....den i left early....need to be alone i guess...............well..........dats all for now.....im tired...gosh...*baby i love u

VALENTINE'S DAY

2005-02-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY PEOPLE...MUACKS MUACKS.HUGS AND KISSES...... LOVE MY BABY.....HE'S SUPER SWEETZ.... HE BOUGHT ME A NECKLACE WIT A HEART SHAPED PENDANT FULL OF DIAMOND....ITS DAMM BLOODY EX..GOSH BABY I WANT UR LOVE MORE THOUGH.....HOPE U LOVED WAT I GAVE U....EVER MONTH MUST ENGRAVE K...WELL HAD A GREAT DAY AFTER QUARRELING YEST.......HAPPY TT WE MANAGE TO SETTLE OUR DIFFERENCES............WELL.IM SICK...DAMM IT...SORE THROAT FLU FEVER.GOSH.........BABY THIS IS DUE TO U ..MISHIN U SO MUCH.....................UPDATE LATER

FuCkEd Up.....

2005-02-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

well i just came back to singapore .....yes i know i should be updating abt my trip out but i simply got no mood for tt................thks to the F*#%eR who spoil my day.if u think tt this is ur house and u have every right to set the rules...well let me set my rules now......CROSS THE BOUNDARY AND I LEAVE.period! tts it....i had enuf...tolerated enuf of ur crap...been giving in.... been very patience....been keeping quiet.itts not my fault and u blame me again n again...fuck off la please.......damm wish i could just elope or somethig...thank god im independent...thk god i have my savings...thk god im werking.... i don need to depend on u people who treat ne as if im one mother fucking living thing wit no heart...i have feelings okie...i have my flaws my weakness too...y the hell u people always take me for granted....ho have i offended u damm it...bitch!

MiSs HiM.....

2005-02-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

gosh ...only god knows how much i miss him..... haiz...somehow i don feel appreciated or love...y is it tt gals tends to suffer more...haiz...i put in my everything for him...but he seems to not bother abt it....i know he has been hurt lots like just how i went through it..... but i tried not to repeat history n hurt u baby i can never do tt... please have some trust in me ......... do i need to beg kneel and cry to prove to u how much u mean to me.... spare me all the tears coz i have none to cry... i want to make things rite....its u dat i want .no one else...y are u acting as if u could not care less...if u are just playign me out den pls leave me.....don hurt me.... i just want u to know i love u i do............. god knows ......... i sacrificed lots of shitz for u...is this wat i deserved.....im not demanding....but a simple appreciation will make my day,....but none.................... haiz..forget it..

TO ALL MY FRENS

2005-02-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day is not just for loversBut also for good friendsSo here is a special messageFor you on Valentine's dayFor always being true and kindFor always being sweetFor bringing smiles of joyTo every part of meI send to you my heartWith endless friendship and loveAnd a promise to always beYour friend in days to comeI know our friendshipWill see the years aheadI'm grateful to have you, my friendOn this Valentine's day

09022005

2005-02-07T01:44:00.000+08:00

lots hapen past few days i didnt blog....haiz...skool got lots of test....two projects to complete damm so pathetic....haiz...sem 2 really sux big time...well i can afford to skip lesson go out have fun watch movies but now hardly had anytime for myself.....i don even know wats wit my schedule............well probably im werking now....strange thing...the more i werk the lesser i have to spent..where the hell my money go to sia...damm it.its the one week break.firstly happy chinese new year to all my chinese frens.....................hmmm well i won be in singapore...i'll be away.....great.......... its time to be away now since lots of problems been creeping up............. well.i love him...but him...haiz...forget it la...love just hurt...anyway...fucked up wit the bloody blog.all my tagging is gone....haiz.....stupid la...damm it.....valentine's day coming...spending my stupid day in the library doing cip... fucked up..... no celebration this yr......nth to celebrate abt.... guess dats all for today...shall update more before i go...........

FOR EQA N JULI....U ARE MY GREATEST FREN...SISTERS FOR LIFE...........

2005-02-07T01:37:00.000+08:00

You are there to be with,
You are there to confide with
You are the one I run to,
When times in my life get blue
Everytime I see your gold glistening hair
a feeling overcomes me and washes away all my fears
Your tender love and sweetness,
Always feels up my feeling of emptinessI
owe you so so much,
Anything I say or do will not erase a debt of suchI know you will be there for me,
I appreciate you so greatly
Thanx for being my friend,
My love for you shall never end

FOR HIM.........

2005-02-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

My love for you is as deep as an ocean floor
You will always be there waiting for me at the other side of the door…
I would climb a mountain for you
I know you would do the same thing too…
I would hold you tight throughout the hard times
I would do anything for you, even make rhymes…
I’ll never think of hurting you
It’s much more fun just flirting with you…
These tears coiled up inside my eyes will not be falling any time soon
For you cannot hurt me your soul is as gentle as the quiet misty moon…
I hope that you can put trust in me
So that you and me will always be…
You light me up like a giant fire
For you are the one that I desire…
You would dance if I asked you to dance
You would understand my love and give me a chance…
You make me happy when I am sad
You are truly the best friend I have ever had…
You are too good to be true
I can’t take my eyes off of you…
I miss you so muchI can’t wait for your touch...
You’re too good to be true
That’s why I love you…

L.I.F.E

2005-01-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm..................been very bz wit life...skool werk frens family and all kinds of stuff..thursday went to jamiyah for a skool CIP stuff...manz....si mr DAUD tu bobal tak paham seh .his english very the powerful...his slang..or shoul i say accent.did i spell it correctly? well....after dat went home...as usual me n juli kalau da jumpe well tts it....the whole world is upside down.from clementi all the way to home laugh n laugh....so many jokes seh...pity those people who became our victim...muahahahaha *evil grins*

well friday damm so tiring.....d day b4 slept at 4 plus...... went skool kol 6 da bangun....skool 8 - 12 den go study....common test ard the corner.... shitz...haiz...stress.sit at cafe to study...but b4 dat nadzri and rahman taught us c- prog..wch i really sux at it....blaja pon bole main main..... hahahah macm dak2 ...ketawwa je kerje kite...... well studied for one hour...another 30 mins sleep n slack....well de im off to wek n juli off to home.

werk wit lim after so long...don know y my eyes are extremley heavy even after washing my face....drag to do werk.... luckily papa mama fetch me home...jia la sia 12 plus den reach home....

ayway got to know this ger lfrom AM.....she is super sweet n gorgeous... heheh...i'll update her pic later...well she's been a great sista... wonderful adviser n listener.... crappy jokes makes my day...well sis..... i miss ya too manz......... well miss u guys too...ppl like nana yanti dhi...............

hmmmmmm

2005-01-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

well..this is gonna be a pretty long entry......

firstly... erm never really update properly evr since new year started...
010105:well i celebrate new year wit ash her fren [a while wit juli b4 she go werk] and my beloved sweet cousin....we went to catch a movie...abes dlm kol 1130 gite...30 mins to new year me n boy went to esplanade...... on the road...ppl were throwing cans la spray watever shit la...nice atmosphere...aku jadi mangsa ...ishk...ta ksampai 5 min kat fountain kite proceed rounding roundind ard cityhall b4 settling down kat bridge at esplanade there...sit n talk...abt the pst...hmmm its a very sad time...skejap je..pastu smiley times...slack there until 230 pastu proceed balik ..meet mama n papa at bt. gombak...

020105...was at aunty yaya's house ade doa selamat...both she and husband going for haji....dok dlm 2 jam lebih pastu proceed ke rumah uncle din...ade family meeting...hmmmda tu aku makan lagi...fuh...banyak makan tapi tak gemok gemok..ishk...rabakz tol...but juli n the rest say i got double chin...pipi pon da macm telur..ahakz... kong asam tol...anyway pastu balik pasal d next day hafiz n tasha da bukak skola...

030105...skool skool skool....boring...not wering today...saw HIM...ouch....his smile is so sweet...he's very very cute! not to mention hot....enuf for today....gonna daydream for now...*evil grins!

well have back dated for so long now i forgot wat dte to write on..anyway pegi tgk myanmar vs SINGAPORE...yeassah kite mmg...baik ah....myanmar main macm sial sak...gaduh pukol org..padan muke dier kene rembat ngn dak dak skinheads...oops.....violence is not allowed..ahakz...exciting seh...

the next day...went out wit HIM!woohooooooo .....ni lagi exciting...we went to catch a movie...waited for him at last cabin...saw him and i melted...so cute...so gorgeous....fun day out overall.... wit his lame jokes...always making me laugh...i guess i will never get sick n tired of looking at his baby face..awww so cute...sorry people cant post it here...bocor rahsia...we took a pic ok! ahakz....hehehheanyway kite tgk cite THE AVIATOR... his choice..tot it will be very boring...but its nice...catch it alrite ppl... must really concentrate...like we did...ahakz...banyak songeh cik abg tu...k kz enuf on him....

next day on monday...was supposed to see him play hockey at nyp...but last min have to werk...damm it...ass hole...ccb!knn!told him...msg him...he sounded very pissed off...very sarcastic...damm i..broke my heart into thousand pieces...damm...so sad...im so sorry!

well the rest of the days goes just as well...didnt see him tt much in shool nowadays...don know y...so sad!and they kep teasing me abt it...haiz...

well!160105!!!!!!!history in the making...singapore won thee tiger cup....kudos guys....u guys rock manz.... well went to the stadium wit my skool people...juli fid...ina..sharir syahmi affie zuhri aman qai lagi tak tau ah...sorry eh kalau tak mention name ...tak ingat...oops...aku ngn ina palingkecoh...drg semua terperanjat seh...hahaha..sorry guys...emo skit ah.... but lucky singapore won...if not i kill them personally...semua da semangat pakai merah...satu stadium penuh...full of action...tak sia sia kite pegi tgk.......woohooo...psst....BAI is so hensem n o tall...wahahahhaha

monday blues.....shit got test never study...pandai ah aku...wahahaha...nvm last min studying will pay off......ahakz...anyway...saw him today...just a glimpse...but tts enuf to make my day!

the rest of the days goes like dat n dat n dat...

21st JANUARY 2004...SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA~ went to nenek house to celebrate...not really well...headache giler babi nye...sakit seh...tapi terpakse tahan jek....takle buat pape...hmmmnice meeting up wit ma cuzzins n aunty all....confirm kecoh seh..ahakz...terkenang masa silam ....very the funny seh! esp mak ani...aunty lo...n ibu..hahaha..... welll....7 plus we head home...tired seh...pening pon tak ok ok....so bored tt im force to sit here and do this...hahaha...well 22nd is ZAIDI's BIRTHDAY....HAPPY BIRTHDAY HENSEM.... MAY U BE BLESSED WIT LOTS OF HAPPINESS N LOVE AND GOOD LUCK TO UR FUTURE ENDEAVOUR... SMILE ALWAYS...FLASH THOSE PEARLIES!~MUACKS..hmmmbsk pegi rumah nyayi ju...ade oa selamat...jadi takle pegi town tgk singapore team parade wit the throphy.....sunday keje...4-10...damm...haiz...well k la...lite stop sini k...muacks

i will

2005-01-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?"Why do my tears fall for someone who was nevermine?""Why is it that I miss someone I was never with?""Why do I love someone who's love was nevermine?"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~tHink aBt tHis.."Have you really cared for someone more thanyou expected?""Have you ever tried to love him despite of allthe pain?"..i hAve.."Will you keep on loving him as he whispers someone else's name?""Will you???"...i wiL..

WoOhOo

2004-12-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

HmMmM TiRed wOrK ScHoOl..BuT I AcTuAlLy DoN UneRsTaNd Ape Yg PeNaT SaNgAt MaYbE Im ToO HeCtIc NoWaDaYs..StOmAcH PaIn BeEn CoMiN AgAiN...HaIz MaKaN SaLaH TaK MaKaN SaLaH...HaHaHa DoN UnDeRsTaNd MySeLf...GuEsS DaTs aLl Da Ta TaU ApE NaK TuLiS....MuAcKs ByE

karma

2004-12-26T04:23:00.000+08:00

Werent't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cry and try and try to make you stay with me
But still you said the love was gone and that I had to leave

Now you
Talking about a family
Now you
Saying I complete your dream
Now you
Saying I'm your everything
Your confusing me, what your saying to me
Don't play with me, don't play with me cause

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

I remember when I was sitting home alone
Waiting for you
To 3 o'clock in the morn'

And when you came home you'd always had some sorry excuse
And explaining to me like I was some kind of a fool
I sacrifice the things I want just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come through

Now you
Wanna be a part of me
Now you
Have so much to say to me
Now you
Wanna make time for me
What you doing to me, your confusing me
Don't play with me, don't play with me cause

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

I remember when I was sitting home alone
Waiting for you
To 3 o'clock in the morn'
Night after night knowing something's going on
What's that number for b go-a-go-a-gone

Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what your suppose to do
No need to punch me boo cause I won't play you cause

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

What goes around comes around (yeah)
What goes up most come down
Gotta stop trying to come back to me

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
It's called Karma, baby
And it goes around

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

I'm BaCk...

2004-12-26T03:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm its been awhile since i update my blog...well..pc been down... been very busy with werk and school....hahaha..well past few days...or should i say weeks...lots of things happen...good and bad..no point talking abt the bad cause its really hurting..anyway the good thing is...2004 is finally coming to an end...its time i reflect on the past 1 yr and buck up on myself.... well by 2005... i really want to mend some stuff.... i learn not to trust people too much cause u might never know they mught stab u right smack on ur back....not to be so naive... let others say or do wat they want..cause i believe the good will be paid wit good and bad wit bad...retributions that is...i know now the meaning of true love... i might not meet my mr. right but i definitely found some one whom i know who will always be there for me through thick and thin...well this is a scret..hahaha... and yes ...every friday..make a deal wit juli and all to go out n have fun since we all finish at 12...yeah..haha...took lots of pics.. so cute... ahakz... glad tt life got better wit them..yanti... wat i meant by wat i say to u was im glad tt now at least u are close wit nana so when u ppl hang out u have someone to crack jokes wit not like last time remember wat we say... im happy for u guys for finding happiness..not tt i wanted to break frenship but i never does..call me if something is up...i no longer wanna be part of tt circle... too much happen and its not fair to me definitely..i guess u ppl will be happy even w/o me...but im still ur fren k...

to my dearest darling baby boy cuz....Mr fauzi...thk u so much for everthing...don worry abt wat has happen... im always here for u...i'll support u in whatever u wanna do... and god knows how much u meant to me after my late boo

my bro zaidi thks so much for still standing up for wat is right... i know u are disappointed but i got no choice but to leave the grp... we'll still be bro and sis aight..

to my family...i love u till the end of my life..... *muacks*

a little dedication to alll....

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that life’s a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need three dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no-one to share with, no-one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby, if I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby x2

PoNgGoL BeAcH

2004-12-10T15:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday met up wit yanti kat bawa blok khai...den the rest come along....ape siak si lily..tgu bawa blok jap pon tak bole ke...stakat 10 min je..padahal hafiz ade...ape dier nak bising...ni ah bdk bdk nye perangai..ahakz..oops..jahat nye aku..well dorang kate she's 15...den y the hell brag abt being a stewardess la... da dpt diploma la...diploma pon dapat limit limit after 20 siak...abih ade hati nak amek lesen ngn kite..ishk...menyirap..k k jgn bobal pasal dier....

hmmm at first semua kate nak pegi chinese garden...tah ape hal tah at last pegi ponggol..pegi matilda house...kite semua pegi...tgh kotor kotor pon pegi...gasak la..ahakz... kite kat luar luar jek...tawaf satu round jek...its eerie la..d silence make it so.. hmmm nothing much dat we did there..abih proceed pegi kedai beli mamam pasal nak lepak kat ponggol beach...da sampai sana...si khai buat hal...dier pegi amek tu belalang ...da gitu takpe...kacau aku ngn yanti...ass tol...kesian yanti...ade bende masok dlm seluar dier sampai nangis nangis...ahakz...si khai kate sumpahan belalang...ahahah...den gitu relek...pas tu aku lak kene...sakit sak..macm kene gigit..masok skirt siol...ishk...eeeeee...gross...tu tmpt macm sial..banyak binatang...banyak anjing...tak romantic langsung...but the wind is so nice..ahakz...breezy...

pas tu ...da kecoh kecoh... nan[a]min head home... aku pon head home ah... yanti khai lily faisal dee n wan go somewhere... well... had a good time too yesterday...today sit home ah...ired giler... sunday werk....guess dats all..muacks

ReUnIoN

2004-12-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

HMMMM WOW AFTER SOME TIME OF BEING LOST IN MY OWN HOME I FINALLY MET THEM AGAIN... REVENGE GALS...MET YANTI AT CAUSEWAY FIRST DEN PROCEED TO KHAI'S HOUSE TO WAIT FOR THE REST...B4 DAT WENT FOR A JOB INTERVIEW...AKU BLOM ABES TULIS TU APPLICATION FORM DIA KATE NARI AKU BOLE START KEJE...WOOHHOOO...kalau nak tau aku keje ape...check out this webbie ... www.fuzionsmoothies.com ... ABEH BILE AKU TGH TGU YANTI ADE BANGLA NI IKOT AKU SAK...BODOH NYE BANGLA..MINTAK KENE REMBAT SAk..

DEN THE REST PON SAMPAI...THE USUAL PEOPLE...YANTI KHAI NANA AMIN DEE WAN ANUAR MAIL HAFIZ ...FAISAL N LILY JOINED US LATER...TRUS PROCEED KE WOODLANDS LAME ..MAKAN ...SEMUA LAPAR...DA MAKAN DEN DORANG MAIN JS...JACK ASS...mampos...jamu pon kalah sak..aku tgk muke wan ngn khai aku yg nak muntah sak tgk dorang nye expression...eeeeeeeeeYUCKS TO THE MAX...PAS TU THE ALS HAD A MEETING PASAL 25TH...YEAH YEAH...JADI PEGI SENTOSA...WOOHOO...ITS A GALS DAY OUT..U GUYS SIT HOME AND SHUT UP...AHAKZ...OOPS

ItS a BeAuTiFuL DaY

2004-12-03T13:57:00.001+08:00

HmMmM WELL YESTERDAY WAS ALRIGHT...AFTER TALKING TO HER...I CAN FEEL THAT THINGS BETWEEN US are ok..slight improvement....AT LEAST ITS BETTER DEN NOTHING... ANYWAY... SHOULD I KEEP MY HAIR SHORT OR LONG EH...HMMM...DA JELAK LAK NGN RAMBUT PENDEK....RAMBUT PANJANG NANTI GE SKOLA LECEH LAK...AIYO...MANYAK FENIING LOR...I THINK......HAIZ...AND I KEEP THINKING...ARGH...NANTI BOLE PK AH...

ANYWAY WENT TOWN ALONE YESTERDAY...HAHHA...MACM ORG GILER SIAK JLN SORANG.... HAHAHA.... ANNYWAY WENT TO BODY-SHOP JUMPE KAK MAMAI TO TAKE MAMA STUFF...AND MY STUFF...BUT WHEN I GOT BACK HOME IT WAS WRONG...SHIT...TODAY ...LATER...GOING AGAIIN...NAK BELI FLIP FLOP AH... FLIP FLOP LAGI SATU MINTAK KENE BUANG..AHAKZ... DA BANYAK KALI SAK JATUH PAKAI FLIP FLOP TU...SAKIT HATI BTOL...MENYIRAP ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABA....SEMOGA PANJANG UMOR MURAH REZEKI SIHAT SIHAT SELALU..... WAH..DATUK AKU NI DA TUA TAPI MASIH ACTIVE..MASIH BOLE MAIN VOLLEYBALL..MAIN BOWLING...NAIK MOTOR VESPA PLATE A TAU.... MAIN MAIN KAPE...VETERAN NYE MOTOR AH...TU VESPA LA YG ANTAR AKU PEGI BALIK SKOLA DULU KECIK KECIK.... SAMPAI SEC 2...PAS TU DIER TUKAR TMPT KEJE...TAK PASS BY SANA JADI TERPAKSA LA NAIK BUS AND TRAIN...PAGI DA KENE BANGUN...PACK SIAK TRAIN SLALU...BUT THATS HOW I GOT TO KNOW SOME PPL LIKE NANA...ILI...YAN... AYIE...AHAKZ...DGN MUKA NGANTOK NAIK TRAIN...TAK VOGUE LANGSUNG SIAK...ANYWAY GRANDDADDY...SEMOGA BAHAGIA DGN ORG YG TERSAYANG... LOVE U LOTS LOTS U KNOW... =)

NAMPAK NAMPAK NYE NARI TURON TOWN SORANG LAGIK LA AKU NI...BUKAN TAK NAK AJAK ORG...TAPI MACM... AH TAKPE AH..TAK YA EXPLAIN...HAHAHA....HMMM I GUESS DATS ALL.... MUACKS...

ThE fAkE mE

2004-12-02T02:11:00.000+08:00

tell me what u want me to be...how u want me to be.... as long as u are appy im willing to change to the kind of person that u want me to be.... im willing to sacrifce my happiness for u...cause u brought me up suffered cause of me ....u are my life....and im willing to do anything for u...even if it means giving up my life.....aku cukup puas ddgn ape yg aku lalui...aku sanggup korban kebahagiaan dan sanggup merana demi kebahagiaan org... i got no more tears to cried.... if u want me to sit at home so i don spend k fine... if u want me to come back home straight after school k fine... no freedom no previliges i don mind...as long as u are happy...im good... wish u cld tell me everything u want me to be.... i'll be good... i'll studay hard make u proud...sit at home and help out.... do every single of ur bidding....i'm willing to sacrifice everything...friendship fun pleasure just to have family love..... OH GOD...HELP ME THROUGH THIS... IM BEGINNING TO LOSE EVERY SINGLE STRENGTH EVERY SINGLE HOPE EVERY SINGLE THING.... TAKE ME AWAY IF IT'LL END EVERYTHING.... IM SURE U LOVE ME MORE DEN ANYONE DO....

FuCkEd Up LiFe

2004-12-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

gosh...bad day today...hp gone...yes ah...well done man shidah....such a total failure in life...u can never get to do something rite...u always do wrong things...failure embarrasement loser sucker dumb ass yes all me...get scolding like hell....there's nothing i can do but just sit there and cry...yes i CRIED... life has never been fair... well i can never say that...i must understand them.... i cant stand up for my rights cause i will be seen as rebellious so i just keep my big gap shut...but wat do u know abt my fren...yes i don deny the fact tt i go out...is it everyday...? i can count the number of times i went out just to hang out wit frens...other den that i rot to death at home....get criticised at yelled at bullied and bore myself to death...but y compare me to my frens.... u know they never go out? u know how their lifestyle is? let me tell u now...they go out almost 4 times a week meeting their loved ones frens chill out movie tea whatever shit...some work some don..... and i spent 10 times lesser den dem...they are more materialistic then me.... have i ever ask u to buy me a gucci bag? LV? coach? mango top? roxy? or ask u to buy me a hp tt cost 400 plus? wat else.... did i ever went out w/o tellin u or ur permission? come on....if i were to be like my frens we wld have gone bonkers...... and when did i always keep asking for things...when did i...did i ask for something new everyday? no! once a month...sometimes none..cause i know wats our liiving expenditure like...u have ur problems yes i know... i've been trying to understand... u always said i don understand u and im wasting ur money n shits.... u cant even see the good stuff i did but always dig out my flaws..... when was the last time i heard u praise me...when was the last time u told me tt u love me.... when was the last time u kiss me goodnight... when was the last time we sit down and talk....when was the last time we had a wonderful outing.....when was the time u ask me am i ok? why do i always face the computer...cause u ppl come back from work read papers watch tv and sleep... is tt how really life shld work? i m suffocating down here...wanting ur attention...depressed ...lonely...lost.... moody... i need help...seriously...someone anyone pleas help me.....

i know i shloud not have writen watever tt i had...but tts the only way to make me feel relieved...god knows wat im going through... i live in fear......

*GOD BLESS ME*

It'S bEeN a LoNg TiMe...

2004-12-01T08:25:00.000+08:00

mmmmm well its really way back dat i updated my blog even though its like few days ago.....anyway went out wit my poly frens go raya.... hahaha....well..it turn out pretty well...thks to the organizer la...hehehe *winks*had lots of fun even though starting ade sikit cocked up...anyway happy belated birthday my dearest juli....may u live ur life wit full of joy and pleasures.....may u n syahmi kekal hingga ke anak cucu...ahakz.... nothing much happen la...my life is a boring life stlye wit no life!!!?? how can i explain . na i don know.... i don wanna talk abt the past few days....not such a good thing to talk abt...being the person in the middle...should just shut my trapeeed.............all i can say is...hurt me all u ppl want wit ur attitude and all...but i'll just move on despite the hurt and all tt crap.... tts all la lazy siak

LiFe Is GeTtInG mOrE AnD mOrE sUcKy

2004-11-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

aiyo...terrible siak..macm macm hal sak the past few days
life is getting more and more complicated....wit lots of twist and turns up n down left and right and all kinds of bullshit... BS! gosh.... hmmm firstly hafiz...im very sorry... i didnt mean to do it...but after i explain things out...hope u undertand....its not my intention to hurt u like tt...im mean yes i admitted it for breaking ur heart but i got lots of things that is more important in my lifet i don want ny relationship.omeone is angry wit me just because i never go his open house...hahaha....sorry la...very bz today to the max...anyway...to the two person...i don konw wat games u are trying to play wit me but just wanna assure u don go too far...cause u might not noe wat a BITCH i can be....leave me alone! and yanti...thks for being there for me.... through my bad times and constantly giving advice n supporting me ...encouraging me... love u sis...u're the best...i really pray things won work out otherwise btw all of us... for now... this is wat im planning to do wit my life:

1clear my room...its in a total mess
2.find a job so i no need to depend on mama and papa too much big gerl now ... yes.
3.get ready for school
4.new year is coming so its time to start fresh leave the past behind and work hard for the coming year.
5.live a healthy lifestyle eat healthily eat good food...and grow grow grow
6.keep fit exercise

THIS IS ME...THINKING....DEEP IN TOTS!

TiReD bUt FuN

2004-11-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

WaH .....YeStErDaY bEtOl NyE hEcTiC....HmMmM..FiRsLy MeEt HaFiZ At CcK ...FetCh Me Go AnUaR hOuSe ..JlN rAya...MaK Oi DgN kAiN ...SuSaH bEnAr NaK nAiK mOtOr...TeRsElAk...FuH ...PeH sExY...AnYwAy PaS tU gO MaEl HoUsE DeN Go My HoUsE...WeEhEeE...TaKe PhOtO TaK AbIs bIs..BiAsE lA SaTu SaTu SeMuA mOdEl..DeN pRoCeEd To KhAi'S hOuSe...KeSiAn AmIn N NaNa...FrOm KaKi BuKiT To Bt PaNjAnG dEn To WoOdLaNdS...SeMeNtAra TgU kHaI bAlIk KeJe KiTa SeMuA MaKaN aMeK gAmBaR pOsIn SaNe SiNi..HaD a SmAlL mEeTiNg WiT tHe ReVeNgE gAlS..AhAkZ..ChEy...GoNnA HaVe A GaThErInG wHeN tHe GuYs Go MeRsInG...WoOhOoO...AnYway PaS Tu Ge UmAh WaN dEn BaCk To BaSe...HaFiZ hs...FrOm HiS HoUsE TUrOn To NiZaM hOuSe DeN tO FaIsAl Hs...KiTe TgK bAdMiNtOn ....SiNgaPoRe LoST...DaMn It..aHaKz...DeN fRoM ThErE wE gO AmIn HoUse....FrM ThErE KiTe Ke MuS hS...FrM Mus Hs Ke NaNa HoUsE..aHaKz...mAmAm PiZzA...fUh...KEnYaNg Tol...BuT tOo BaD CaNt StAy LoNg...GtG To AuNtY JAmIlAh'S hS aDe OpEn Hs...SaMpAi Je DoRaNg SuRoH mAkAn...MaMpOs ..KoYaK SAk BaJu...PaS Tu BeR kArAoKe..AhAkZ...SaMpAi HiLaNg SuArA...TaKe PhOtO wIt AuNTy AiDa AnD aLl...PoSiN MaUt NyE..AhAkZ...KeKeK SaK...HmMmM BeN aNd Abg BoY WeRe ThErE tOo...SoMeTiMes I JusT eNvy SaLiNa N zAzA...hAiZ..BeTtEr NoT tAlK aBt ThAt...DeN wEnT hOmE...GoSh So TiReD..ChAt a WhIlE dEn Go BoBoK

ThKs HaFiZ

2004-11-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

FiRsTlY sLaMaT hArI rAyA mAaF zAhIr DaN bAtIn...SeCoNdLy...HaFiZ...ThKs FoR bEiNg ThErE fOr Me EvErY sInGlE tImE N PaTiEnTlY WaItEd FoR mE LoViNg Me...PuTtInG uP WiTh My sTuBbOrNeSs AnD eGo...U r ThE sEcOnD mOsT pAtIeNt GuY I EvEr KnOwN aNd Im ReAlLy BlEsSeD n ThAnKfUl FoR u!ThIrDlY uR uNdErStAnDiNg PaTiEnCe TrUe LoVe EnCoUrAgMeNt N mOtIvAtIoN HaS ToUcHeD mE.....FoUrTh...ThKs FoR iNtRoDuCiNg Me To A wOnDeRFuLl GrP OF FrEnS...YaNtI kHaI AnUaR dIn HaFiZ MuS FaIsAl LiLy WaN dEe AmIn NaNa NiZaM ErMa ...If I mIsS oUt AnYoNe Im SoRrY ..BuT pPl ShLd KnOw WhO u R...I LoVe U gUyS ThKs FoR AdDiNg LaUgHtEr HaPpInEeSs LoVe InTo mY lIfE...U gUys RaWk..FiFtH..To ThE pErSoN hImSeLf...ThAnK u CaNt RePaY fOr LoViNg Me... BuT iM sOrRy LoVe Is NoT aVaIlAbLe FoR u At ThIs PeRiOd Of TiMe...~lOvE PiNK~

WeLcOmE bAcK

2004-11-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

its been sometime i updated my blog...bz la..due to hari raya...ahakz... maaf je kluar tapi duit tak masok...ape seh...ahakz...da tua sangat ke aku ni..hahaha..anyway...nothing much hppen ... only few surprises here and there...

1.amin is going out wit nana..anjat gegerl..ahakz..small world seh macm main merry go round...at last we're back to the same place...hehehe
2.erm i didnt expect tt person to love me...gosh..wat is it tt i possess..guys..don love me pls... one is enuf..ahakz...hmmm kalau ade yg degil lagi ...aku rasa tukar jantina pon baik..whkaakka..main main jek...

past few days...tak buat pape...asyik kluar je jln raya...go to lots of houses...some i don even know they are my relatives!gosh...ape aku ni...tak kenal sedare...ahakz..anyway went to cityhall wit NANA two days ago...met yanti there too ..dier nak keje..i go buy mama's stuff..hang ard awhile..talk crap...gossip here and there...ahakz...shhhhhhh...at 6 we left...reach home mandi den kluar jln raya lagik..smangat seh kluarga aku...ahakz... tiring day but fun...lots of new info masok... had my fair share of laughters n tears..it was overall a great daay...

thursday.... i was so damn sick...feverISH at night ...didnt tell mama....eat medicine and sleep..but felt better after that...wanted to meet my hafiz they all at woodlands ...teman dier pegi tgk wayang wit the rest but ...still i need to follow my family go jln raya! again!yes Im not kiddin...

and today...was chatting online on msn wit yanti...den dier kate org VNC called her down for an interview...teman dier pegi..mak kaoz...45 min sak interview dier...macm kene investigate siak...hahaha...well go eat at mac at marina square ...ahakz..bukan kenyang pasal makan..kenyang pasal ketawa...nasib baik raya 1 bulan...kite nak kene mintak maaf ngn ramai org ni..ahakz...erm...sorry ah...maaf eh kpd sesape yg patut maafkan kite dua..ahakz...actually nak ajak nana...but dier nak kluar ngn amin..so decided not to disturb the love birds...ahakz..met nizam on the way back in the train..anjat jap...had a smalll chat and i alighted at cck heading home... balik mandi ps tu kluar lagik...haiz..yes jln raya lagik....ahakz..naik mendak siak kluar .... bsk kluar lagik...tapi takpe...ngn my beloved darlings all..so its ok... *winks..yes ah taufik is in the final.... stupid sly...his voice tak begitu sedap seh pon masok...pompan pompan yg tergila gila kan dier buta seh... taufik...i will vote for u...SPORE..please open ur eyes n see carefully ok... hmmmso here i am ...waiting for him to come back from railway...kate nak balik b4 1 tapi ta ksampai sampai pon... ride safely .....its been nearly two weeks..erm i think tt i last saw them...im still waiting hopelessly at home....wah..panjang nah siak...ok la sampai situ jek...mmuacks

tAkInG a HoLiDaY fRoM bLoGgInG..

2004-11-12T16:23:00.000+08:00

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9.LeVi's SkIrT...<$119!!!!damm it>
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DaMm It So MucH? DuIt RaYe PoN TaK dApAt CoVeR hAlF sIaK...SOB SOB SOB SaPe YaNg BaiK hAtI Eh Nak BeLiKaN BuDak TaK tAu MaLu NI...ArGh...I NEED TO WORK LET ME REPEAT I NEED TO WORK... BuT wHeRE...HeY gIVe Me SoMe SuGgEsTiOn!ArGh...So LaZy To Work .... ...MuAhAhaHaHa...*eViL ToTs* EvIl GrInS*

FoR mY dEaR mAmA

2004-11-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

MAMA..I KNOW U LOVE ME ALOT..BUT SOMETIMES... U GOT TO LET US TASTE HARDSHIP AND PAIN OUR WAY...

CHILDREN ARE BORN TO U BUT NOT URS TO KEPP
YET WHEN THEY GROW UP U TEND TO WEEP
U'VE SHOWN THEM THE RIGHHT WAY AND MAKING THEM WISE
PAIN AND SUFFERING COME WITH THE BOND U SHARE
ALWAYS WANTING THEM TO KNOW JUST HOW MUCH U CARE
U HAVE EXPECTATIONS OF THEM WHICH ARE TOO HIGH
YET THEY GO THEIR OWN WAY NO MATTER HOW HARD U TRY
THROUGHOUT THEIR LIVES U'VE TAUGHT THEM ALL U KNOW
BUT U HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE AND LET GO...

U'VE RAISED ME TO THE BEST OF UR ABILITY
BUT U MUST REALISED IM NO LONGER UR LIABILITY
I LOVE U FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART
BUT THE TIME HAS COME FOR US TO PART
U'LL ALWAYS BE MY MOTHER AND MY LIFELONG FREN
U'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN
THE BOND WE HAVE WILL LAST FOREVER
AND NOTHING IN LIFE COULD EVER BE BETTER
I AM ALL URS FROM HEAD TO TOE
BUT U HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE AND LET GO

U'VE HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MISTAKES IN MY LIFE
I'VE DONE WRONG EVEN THOUGH U TAUGHT ME RIGHT
U TRIED T RAISE ME ACCORDING TO UR TOUGHTS
I OFTEN BLAMED THAT FOR THE REASONS WE FOUGHT
EVERYTHING U SAID WENT IN ONE EAR AND OUT ANOTHER
NOW ITS TIME U MUST RAISE ANOTHER
HOPEFULLY THEY WON TURN OT THE SAME
AND CAUSE U EMBARRASSMENT GRIEF AND MOST OF ALL SHAME
I'VE ALWAS LOOKED TO U WHEN I DIDNT KNOW
BUT WE HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE N LET GO

I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE A ROUGH ROAD
BUT U MUST LET ME TAKE ON THE FULL LOAD
U MUST KEEP URSELF FRM LENDING ME A HAND
IM NO LONGER A CHILD I AM BECOMING A WOMAN
WE HAVE MANY MEMORIES AND WE'LL HAVE MANY MORE
JUST REMEMBER EVERYTHING FROM THE TIME I WAS BORN
TO ME U WERE THE GREATEST MOTHER THAT I EVER COULD HAVE
THROUGHOUT OUR PROBLEMS WE'VE ALWAYS FOUND A ROOM TO LAUGH
U WERE THE ONLY ONE WHO HELPED ME GROW
NOW COMES OUR TIME TO LOVE AND LET GO

THAT WAS A POEM DEDICATED TO MY MOTHER...DEAREST MAMA...U TEND TO STRESS OUT YOURSELF EVEN WITH THE LITTLE THING...IF I WERE TO PUT MYSELF IN UR SHOES I UNDERSTAND THE LITTLE THING THAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH YOUR FEAR YOUR EXPECTATION BUT WE LITTLE BRATS DONT APPRECIATE IT.... HAIZ...BUT HOW CAN WE SHOW YOU THAT DESPITE ALL THE BAD THINGS WE DID WE LOVE U!

a TriBuTe To My DeArEsT

2004-11-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

LOVING YOU, KNOWING YOU... HAS TRULY MADE ME LEARN SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF..AND THINGS SURROUNDING ME..I DON'T KNOW WHT I'LL DO WITHOUT YOU...COZ THOSE DAYS WHEN WE SLACKED...I KINDA FEEL THE EMPTINESS INSIDE ME..I HATE THAT FEELING...I HATE THE TOT OF U LEAVING... BUT ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN MY LIFE A NEW BEGINNING THAT HAS NO END ...EVERY MINUTE OF MY LIFE I PROUDLY TELL MYSELF THAT U ARE WIT ME MEANT FOR ME AND WILL ALWAYS BE PART OF ME...
* FOR HERE I WAIT,ALWAYS DO STAY
CONNECTED HEART TO HEART, WITH U IN EVERYWAY
WISH U WERE HERE WITH ME
I HOPE OUR LOVE WILL ALWAYS SHINE BRIGHT
DESPITE MY DARNESS THAT DAMPENED THE LIGHT
I AM SORRY FOR ALL THE MISTAKES THAT I MADE
AND WISHED WE SPENT MORE TIME TOGETHER
ALONE IN A DATE ...I LOVE U DEAR...
THOUGH WE ARE FAR APART...
BUT I KEEP U NEAR DEEP IN MY HEART
THOUGH WE ARE NEVER IN SIGHT..
BUT PLEASE DO KEEP MY PROMISE TIGHT
I KNOW I ALWAYS MAKE U FEEL WRONG
BUT U ARE THE ONE I LOVE...
I LOVE EVER SO STRONG...

*rEsT iN pEaCe My DeAr..lOvE u <1985-2004>

WaT a DaY

2004-11-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

HMMMM SO TIRED...JUST GOT BACK FROM GEYLANG...FINALLY BOUGHT THE PINK KEBAYA... WOOHOO... $165 BUT I LIKE IT SO MUCH...ITS PINK AND IT LOOK SO GORGEOUS..DAMM..CANT IMAGINE ME WEARING IT...*WINKS...CONFIRM SWEET GILERNYE..AHAKZ GOSH ME AND MY SELF PRAISE..AHAKZ..ANYWAY SAW HANAFI...DAMM HE'S SO GD LOOKING NOW...HE'S WIT A NEW GAL WHO LOOKS LIKE AS IF SHE'S 10 YRS OLDER DEN HIM...WITH THAT THICK MAKE UP....GOSH ..WAKE UP LADY...U ARE GOING GEYLANG NOT SOME BEAUTY CONTEST... HMMM THICK MAKE UP...GEYLANG?..AHAKZ...WAT AM I THINKING..ANYWAY...NEWAY... Y DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO FACE STUPID SITUATION...SITUATION WHERE 2 FRENS GOING FOR ME...ARGH...GUYS WAKE UP..OPEN UR EYES... IM NOT THE KIND OF GAL U THINK I AM..IM SWEET INNOCENT YES BUT IM NOT UR SMALL LITTLE GOODY-GOODY GAL..WAT IS SO GOOD ABT ME.. IM STUBBORN EGOISTIC VAIN MEAN BIATCH..DON JUDGE ME COZ OF MY APPEARANCE... IM NOT UR GAL NEXT DOOR BOYZ... HHMMM MAYBE BECOZ..I DON WANT TO FAL IN LOVE ..COZ IM ALREADY IN LOVE..WIT THAT ONE PERSON...BUT GOD TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME...HOW COULD HE..ISNT HE SATISFIED THAT HE ALREADY GAVE ME SO MUCH PROBLEMS...Y TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME...I GUESS ALL THIS HAPPEN FOR A REASON...DEAR GOD IM SORRY I DNT MEAN TO BLAME U.. IM SORRY...IM A STRONG GAL..I KNOW I AM...IM ABLE TO PULL THROUGH.. BUT PLS GUIDE ME THROUGH SINCE HE'S IS GONE.. WELLL ONE THING...SORRY PEOPLE..IM NOT READY TO OPEN MY HEART ..NOT READY TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP..NOT READY TO ACCEPT ANYONE ELSE INTO MY LIFE TO REPLACE HIM...IF U REALLY LOVE ME...GIVE ME TIME ... WAIT FOR ME IF ITS REALLY TRUE LOVE..IF WE'RE MEANT TO BE... WE'LL BE... BUT FOR NOW..I JUST WANNA ENJOY MY SO CALLED SINGLEHOOD WIT MY FAMILY..I GUESS..I REALLY NEED TIME WIT THEM... I NEED FAMILY LOVE.. I NEED TIME WITH MY FRENS TOO...AND MY DEAREST FAMILY... I PROMISE THEM LOVE AND HAPPINES..I CANNOT GO BACK ON MY WORDS...DEAREST FAMILY..LOVE U AIGHT...TAKE CARE..*MUACKS...

GUESS DATS ALL..FUH...DAT WAS VERY LONG ISNT IT... SORRY..

SWEET INNOCENT ME

cOz U'Re EvErYtHiNg To Me

2004-11-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

BrO BrO Im FiNe Im AlRiTee....Im A WoMaN Of StReNgTh HoW cAn I nOt Be Ok!
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