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Sunday, November 28, 2004
11:28 PM
aiyo...terrible siak..macm macm hal sak the past few days
life is getting more and more complicated....wit lots of twist and turns up n down left and right and all kinds of bullshit... BS! gosh.... hmmm firstly hafiz...im very sorry... i didnt mean to do it...but after i explain things out...hope u undertand....its not my intention to hurt u like tt...im mean yes i admitted it for breaking ur heart but i got lots of things that is more important in my lifet i don want ny relationship.omeone is angry wit me just because i never go his open house...hahaha....sorry la...very bz today to the max...anyway...to the two person...i don konw wat
games
u are trying to play wit me but just wanna assure u don go too far...cause u might not noe wat a BITCH i can be....leave me alone! and yanti...thks for being there for me.... through my bad times and constantly giving advice n supporting me ...encouraging me... love u sis...u're the best...i really pray things won work out otherwise btw all of us... for now... this is wat im planning to do wit my life:
1clear my room...its in a total mess
2.find a job so i no need to depend on mama and papa too much big gerl now ... yes.
3.get ready for school
4.new year is coming so its time to start fresh leave the past behind and work hard for the coming year.
5.live a
health
y lifestyle eat
health
ily eat good food...and grow grow grow
6.keep fit exercise
THIS IS ME...THINKING....DEEP IN TOTS!
pinkk*
Sunday, November 21, 2004
1:50 PM
WaH .....YeStErDaY bEtOl NyE hEcTiC....HmMmM..FiRsLy MeEt HaFiZ At CcK ...FetCh Me Go AnUaR hOuSe ..JlN rAya...MaK Oi DgN kAiN ...SuSaH bEnAr NaK nAiK mOtOr...TeRsElAk...FuH ...PeH
sEx
Y...AnYwAy PaS tU gO MaEl HoUsE DeN Go My HoUsE...WeEhEeE...TaKe PhOtO TaK AbIs bIs..BiAsE lA SaTu SaTu SeMuA mOdEl..DeN pRoCeEd To KhAi'S hOuSe...KeSiAn AmIn N NaNa...FrOm KaKi BuKiT To Bt PaNjAnG dEn To WoOdLaNdS...SeMeNtAra TgU kHaI bAlIk KeJe KiTa SeMuA MaKaN aMeK gA
mBa
R pOsIn SaNe SiNi..HaD a SmAlL mEeTiNg WiT tHe ReVeNgE gAlS..AhAkZ..ChEy...GoNnA HaVe A GaThErInG wHeN tHe GuYs Go MeRsInG...WoOhOoO...AnYway PaS Tu Ge UmAh WaN dEn BaCk To BaSe...HaFiZ hs...FrOm HiS HoUsE TUrOn To NiZaM hOuSe DeN tO FaIsAl Hs...KiTe TgK bAdMiNtOn ....SiNgaPoRe LoST...DaMn It..aHaKz...DeN fRoM ThErE wE gO AmIn HoUse....FrM ThErE KiTe Ke MuS hS...FrM Mus Hs Ke NaNa HoUsE..aHaKz...mAmAm PiZzA...fUh...KEnYaNg Tol...BuT tOo BaD CaNt StAy LoNg...GtG To AuNtY JAmIlAh'S hS aDe OpEn Hs...SaMpAi Je DoRaNg SuRoH mAkAn...MaMpOs ..KoYaK SAk BaJu...PaS Tu BeR kArAoKe..AhAkZ...SaMpAi HiLaNg SuArA...TaKe PhOtO wIt AuNTy AiDa AnD aLl...PoSiN MaUt NyE..AhAkZ...KeKeK SaK...HmMmM BeN aNd Abg BoY WeRe ThErE tOo...SoMeTiMes I JusT eNvy SaLiNa N zAzA...hAiZ..BeTtEr NoT tAlK aBt ThAt...DeN wEnT hOmE...GoSh So TiReD..ChAt a WhIlE dEn Go BoBoK
pinkk*
Saturday, November 20, 2004
1:14 AM
FiRsTlY sLaMaT hArI rAyA mAaF zAhIr DaN bAtIn...SeCoNdLy...HaFiZ...ThKs FoR bEiNg ThErE fOr Me EvErY sInGlE tImE N PaTiEnTlY WaItEd FoR mE LoViNg Me...PuTtInG uP WiTh My sTuBbOrNeSs AnD eGo...U r ThE sEcOnD mOsT pAtIeNt GuY I EvEr KnOwN aNd Im ReAlLy BlEsSeD n ThAnKfUl FoR u!ThIrDlY uR uNdErStAnDiNg PaTiEnCe TrUe LoVe EnCoUrAgMeNt N mOtIvAtIoN HaS ToUcHeD mE.....FoUrTh...ThKs FoR iNtRoDuCiNg Me To A wOnDeRFuLl GrP OF FrEnS...YaNtI kHaI AnUaR dIn HaFiZ
MuS FaIsAl LiLy WaN dEe AmIn NaNa NiZaM ErMa ...If I mIsS oUt AnYoNe Im SoRrY ..BuT pPl ShLd KnOw WhO u R...I LoVe U gUyS ThKs FoR AdDiNg LaUgHtEr HaPpInEeSs LoVe InTo mY lIfE...U gUys RaWk..FiFtH..To ThE pErSoN hImSeLf...ThAnK u CaNt RePaY fOr LoViNg Me... BuT iM sOrRy LoVe Is NoT aVaIlAbLe FoR u At ThIs PeRiOd Of TiMe...~lOvE PiNK~
pinkk*
Friday, November 19, 2004
11:25 PM
its been sometime i updated my blog...bz la..due to hari raya...ahakz... maaf je kluar tapi duit tak masok...ape seh...ahakz...da tua sangat ke aku ni..hahaha..anyway...nothing much hppen ... only few surprises here and there...
1.amin is going out wit nana..anjat gegerl..ahakz..small world seh macm main merry go round...at last we're back to the same place...hehehe
2.erm i didnt expect tt person to love me...gosh..wat is it tt i possess..guys..don love me pls... one is enuf..ahakz...hmmm kalau ade yg degil lagi ...aku rasa tukar jantina pon baik..whkaakka..main main jek...
past few days...tak buat pape...asyik kluar je jln raya...go to lots of houses...some i don even know they are my relatives!gosh...ape aku ni...tak kenal sedare...ahakz..anyway went to cityhall wit NANA two days ago...met yanti there too ..dier nak keje..i go buy mama's stuff..hang ard awhile..talk crap...gossip here and there...ahakz...shhhhhhh...at 6 we left...reach home mandi den kluar jln raya lagik..smangat seh kluarga aku...ahakz... tiring day but fun...lots of new info masok... had my fair share of laughters n tears..it was overall a great daay...
thursday.... i was so damn sick...feverISH at night ...didnt tell mama....eat medicine and sleep..but felt better after that...wanted to meet my hafiz they all at woodlands ...teman dier pegi tgk wayang wit the rest but ...still i need to follow my family go jln raya! again!yes Im not kiddin...
and today...was chatting online on msn wit yanti...den dier kate org VNC called her down for an interview...teman dier pegi..mak kaoz...45 min sak interview dier...macm kene investigate siak...hahaha...well go eat at mac at marina square ...ahakz..bukan kenyang pasal makan..kenyang pasal ketawa...nasib baik raya 1 bulan...kite nak kene mintak maaf ngn ramai org ni..ahakz...erm...sorry ah...maaf eh kpd sesape yg patut maafkan kite dua..ahakz...actually nak ajak nana...but dier nak kluar ngn amin..so decided not to disturb the love birds...ahakz..met nizam on the way back in the train..anjat jap...had a smalll chat and i alighted at cck heading home... balik mandi ps tu kluar lagik...haiz..yes jln raya lagik....ahakz..naik mendak siak kluar .... bsk kluar lagik...tapi takpe...ngn my beloved darlings all..so its ok... *winks..yes ah taufik is in the final.... stupid sly...his voice tak begitu sedap seh pon masok...pompan pompan yg tergila gila kan dier buta seh... taufik...i will vote for u...SPORE..please open ur eyes n see carefully ok... hmmmso here i am ...waiting for him to come back from railway...kate nak balik b4 1 tapi ta ksampai sampai pon... ride safely .....its been nearly two weeks..erm i think tt i last saw them...im still waiting hopelessly at home....wah..panjang nah siak...ok la sampai situ jek...mmuacks
pinkk*
Friday, November 12, 2004
4:23 PM
RaYa Is FiNaLlY TwO DaYs AwAy............. I CaNnOt WaIt..WoOhOoHmMmM GuEsS I'Ll StAy AwAy FrOm Pc ThIs FeW DaYs ...AhAkZ...So I CaNt BlOg..CoNfIrM Bz NaK cOlLeCtIoN...Bz NaK BeRaYe DgN OrG KeSaYaNg SeMuA...HeHeHe.. HmMmM My WiSh LiSt BiLe dApAt DuIt RaYe :
1.tHaT lEvI's JeAnS
2.nEw look....trendy cool funky
3.RoXy BaG Tt I aNd JuLi SaW...ArGh..So NiCe<$30 plus>
4.NeW rOxY wAlLeT..ThE oNe I aNd JuLi SaW aGaIn.....<$10>
5.I BaDlY nEeD nEw FliP FloPs sO i CaN wAlK ProPeRlY..shhhhhhhh JuLi..<$20>
6.Tt BlAcK mAnGo ToP<$15>
7.FcUk ToP<$40>
8.RoXy ToP<$40>
9.LeVi's SkIrT...<$119!!!!damm it>
10.a NeW hAiR cOlOuR<$80??>
DaMm It So MucH? DuIt RaYe PoN TaK dApAt CoVeR hAlF sIaK...SOB SOB SOB SaPe YaNg BaiK hAtI Eh Nak BeLiKaN BuDak TaK tAu MaLu NI...ArGh...I NEED TO WORK LET ME REPEAT I NEED TO WORK... BuT wHeRE...HeY gIVe Me SoMe SuGgEsTiOn!ArGh...So LaZy To Work .... ...MuAhAhaHaHa...*eViL ToTs* EvIl GrInS*
pinkk*
MAMA..I KNOW U LOVE ME ALOT..BUT SOMETIMES... U GOT TO LET US TASTE HARDSHIP AND PAIN OUR WAY...
CHILDREN ARE BORN TO U BUT NOT URS TO KEPP
YET WHEN THEY GROW UP U TEND TO WEEP
U'VE SHOWN THEM THE RIGHHT WAY AND MAKING THEM WISE
PAIN AND SUFFERING COME WITH THE BOND U SHARE
ALWAYS WANTING THEM TO KNOW JUST HOW MUCH U CARE
U HAVE EXPECTATIONS OF THEM WHICH ARE TOO HIGH
YET THEY GO THEIR OWN WAY NO MATTER HOW HARD U TRY
THROUGHOUT THEIR LIVES U'VE TAUGHT THEM ALL U KNOW
BUT U HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE AND LET GO...
U'VE RAISED ME TO THE BEST OF UR ABILITY
BUT U MUST REALISED IM NO LONGER UR LIABILITY
I LOVE U FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART
BUT THE TIME HAS COME FOR US TO PART
U'LL ALWAYS BE MY MOTHER AND MY LIFELONG FREN
U'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN
THE BOND WE HAVE WILL LAST FOREVER
AND NOTHING IN LIFE COULD EVER BE BETTER
I AM ALL URS FROM HEAD TO TOE
BUT U HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE AND LET GO
U'VE HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MISTAKES IN MY LIFE
I'VE DONE WRONG EVEN THOUGH U TAUGHT ME RIGHT
U TRIED T RAISE ME ACCORDING TO UR TOUGHTS
I OFTEN BLAMED THAT FOR THE REASONS WE FOUGHT
EVERYTHING U SAID WENT IN ONE EAR AND OUT ANOTHER
NOW ITS TIME U MUST RAISE ANOTHER
HOPEFULLY THEY WON TURN OT THE SAME
AND CAUSE U E
MBA
RRASSMENT GRIEF AND MOST OF ALL SHAME
I'VE ALWAS LOOKED TO U WHEN I DIDNT KNOW
BUT WE HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO LOVE N LET GO
I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE A ROUGH ROAD
BUT U MUST LET ME TAKE ON THE FULL LOAD
U MUST KEEP URSELF FRM LENDING ME A HAND
IM NO LONGER A CHILD I AM BECOMING A WOMAN
WE HAVE MANY MEMORIES AND WE'LL HAVE MANY MORE
JUST REMEMBER EVERYTHING FROM THE TIME I WAS BORN
TO ME U WERE THE GREATEST MOTHER THAT I EVER COULD HAVE
THROUGHOUT OUR PROBLEMS WE'VE ALWAYS FOUND A ROOM TO LAUGH
U WERE THE ONLY ONE WHO HELPED ME GROW
NOW COMES OUR TIME TO LOVE AND LET GO
THAT WAS A POEM DEDICATED TO MY MOTHER...DEAREST MAMA...U TEND TO STRESS OUT YOURSELF EVEN WITH THE LITTLE THING...IF I WERE TO PUT MYSELF IN UR SHOES I UNDERSTAND THE LITTLE THING THAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH YOUR FEAR YOUR EXPECTATION BUT WE LITTLE BRATS DONT APPRECIATE IT.... HAIZ...BUT HOW CAN WE SHOW YOU THAT DESPITE ALL THE BAD THINGS WE DID WE LOVE U!
pinkk*
LOVING YOU, KNOWING YOU... HAS TRULY MADE ME LEARN SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF..AND THINGS SURROUNDING ME..I DON'T KNOW WHT I'LL DO WITHOUT YOU...COZ THOSE DAYS WHEN WE SLACKED...I KINDA FEEL THE EMPTINESS INSIDE ME..I HATE THAT FEELING...I HATE THE TOT OF U LEAVING... BUT ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT YOU HAVE GIVEN MY LIFE A NEW BEGINNING THAT HAS NO END ...EVERY MINUTE OF MY LIFE I PROUDLY TELL MYSELF THAT U ARE WIT ME MEANT FOR ME AND WILL ALWAYS BE PART OF ME...
* FOR HERE I WAIT,ALWAYS DO STAY
CONNECTED HEART TO HEART, WITH U IN EVERYWAY
WISH U WERE HERE WITH ME
I HOPE OUR LOVE WILL ALWAYS SHINE BRIGHT
DESPITE MY DARNESS THAT DAMPENED THE LIGHT
I AM SORRY FOR ALL THE MISTAKES THAT I MADE
AND WISHED WE SPENT MORE TIME TOGETHER
ALONE IN A DATE ...I LOVE U DEAR...
THOUGH WE ARE FAR APART...
BUT I KEEP U NEAR DEEP IN MY HEART
THOUGH WE ARE NEVER IN SIGHT..
BUT PLEASE DO KEEP MY PROMISE TIGHT
I KNOW I ALWAYS MAKE U FEEL WRONG
BUT U ARE THE ONE I LOVE...
I LOVE EVER SO STRONG...
*rEsT iN pEaCe My DeAr..lOvE u <1985-2004>
pinkk*
Thursday, November 11, 2004
11:50 PM
HMMMM SO TIRED...JUST GOT BACK FROM GEYLANG...FINALLY BOUGHT THE PINK KEBAYA... WOOHOO... $165 BUT I LIKE IT SO MUCH...ITS PINK AND IT LOOK SO GORGEOUS..DAMM..CANT IMAGINE ME WEARING IT...*WINKS...CONFIRM SWEET GILERNYE..AHAKZ GOSH ME AND MY SELF PRAISE..AHAKZ..ANYWAY SAW HANAFI...DAMM HE'S SO GD LOOKING NOW...HE'S WIT A NEW GAL WHO LOOKS LIKE AS IF SHE'S 10 YRS OLDER DEN HIM...WITH THAT THICK MAKE UP....GOSH ..WAKE UP LADY...U ARE GOING GEYLANG NOT SOME BEAUTY CONTEST... HMMM THICK MAKE UP...GEYLANG?..AHAKZ...WAT AM I THINKING..ANYWAY...NEWAY... Y DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO FACE STUPID SITUATION...SITUATION WHERE 2 FRENS GOING FOR ME...ARGH...GUYS WAKE UP..OPEN UR EYES... IM NOT THE KIND OF GAL U THINK I AM..IM SWEET INNOCENT YES BUT IM NOT UR SMALL LITTLE GOODY-GOODY GAL..WAT IS SO GOOD ABT ME.. IM STUBBORN EGOISTIC VAIN MEAN BIATCH..DON JUDGE ME COZ OF MY APPEARANCE... IM NOT UR GAL NEXT DOOR BOYZ... HHMMM MAYBE BECOZ..I DON WANT TO FAL IN LOVE ..COZ IM ALREADY IN LOVE..WIT THAT ONE PERSON...BUT GOD TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME...HOW COULD HE..ISNT HE SATISFIED THAT HE ALREADY GAVE ME SO MUCH PROBLEMS...Y TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME...I GUESS ALL THIS HAPPEN FOR A REASON...DEAR GOD IM SORRY I DNT MEAN TO BLAME U.. IM SORRY...IM A STRONG GAL..I KNOW I AM...IM ABLE TO PULL THROUGH.. BUT PLS GUIDE ME THROUGH SINCE HE'S IS GONE.. WELLL ONE THING...SORRY PEOPLE..IM NOT READY TO OPEN MY HEART ..NOT READY TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP..NOT READY TO ACCEPT ANYONE ELSE INTO MY LIFE TO REPLACE HIM...IF U REALLY LOVE ME...GIVE ME TIME ... WAIT FOR ME IF ITS REALLY TRUE LOVE..IF WE'RE MEANT TO BE... WE'LL BE... BUT FOR NOW..I JUST WANNA ENJOY MY SO CALLED SINGLEHOOD WIT MY FAMILY..I GUESS..I REALLY NEED TIME WIT THEM... I NEED FAMILY LOVE.. I NEED TIME WITH MY FRENS TOO...AND MY DEAREST FAMILY... I PROMISE THEM LOVE AND HAPPINES..I CANNOT GO BACK ON MY WORDS...DEAREST FAMILY..LOVE U AIGHT...TAKE CARE..*MUACKS...
GUESS DATS ALL..FUH...DAT WAS VERY LONG ISNT IT... SORRY..
SWEET INNOCENT ME
pinkk*
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
3:20 PM
BrO BrO Im FiNe Im AlRiTee....Im A WoMaN Of StReNgTh HoW cAn I nOt Be Ok!
aNyWaY..So TiReD ToDaY ClEaN tHe HoUsE...SeMaNgAt NaK RaYa...YeS Ah ...BaJu Da GoSoK LaNgSiR Da PaSaNg CaRpEt Da BeNtAnG...HeHeHe..AnYwAy KpD Yg MeNyAmBoT DeEpAvAlI HaPpY DeEpAvAlI...
GoSh LePaS SaTu BaLaK aBiS LaGi SaTu BaLaK...ArGh Im iN a DiLeMma... AsAl La KoRaNg Ni...AkU kAlAu LaWa SaNgAt TaKpE....MaCm MaNe KoRaNg BoLe SuKe AkU nI....HaIz...GuYz
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